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showing rookie the ropesâ â â â â â â â â â â â â â â callahan ( detective oc ) & alastair ( police oc ) x criminal ftm reader
NSFW ââ coninuation of this , threesome , degradation ( from callahan ) , use of cunt & pussy
Being caged in Callahan's house wasn't all bad.
Who knew the detective would so lovingly take care of you like a stray cat that's too adorable to walk by? Before you're even awake and on your feet, you can hear Callahan busy in the kitchen, making breakfast for the both of you.
He serves you food with a ceramic plate and silverware for each meal despite spending months on end trying to find and arrest you. Yet you're here, under his watch, his care, because youâapparentlyâare the key to his ongoing case. Whether that was true or false, not even Callahan knew the answer.
The faint chirping of birds reminded you of how early Callahan routinely woke up at. The soft flickers of sunlight streaked across Callahan's floors; the white specks of dust floating in the air had entertained your eyes like a morning warm-up.
âI have a day off,â Callahan grumbled as if he had to force those words out, âDo whatever you want today.â He skewered the fried egg onto his fork and brought it to his mouth, chewing quietly as an awkward blanket of silence draped over the both of you.
He watches your head shake up and down sleepily, like you're about to nod off back to sleep.
âIf you're that fucking tired just go to sleep.â He stood up abruptly from his chair, the wooden legs screeching along the floorboards. He circles the table to reach you, hooking his hands under your thighs to hoist you up over his shoulder. âYou can heat it up later when you're not about to fall on the damn plate.â
He hears your retaliations, just chooses not care. Callahan's struggling with the way you're wriggling in his grasp, hitting his chest, caging his waist with your legs to try and wrestle him off, and whining about how you're awake enough to eat.
âGod damn it, just stay still alrightââ He pauses when he sees you pant underneath him, cheeks flushed, and hands up in surrender. Now, if that doesn't get him all worked up.
He stares for a heartbeat too long before he pushes himself off of you, shifting his gaze to anything else but your face. Callahan reachs for one of his pillows, chucking it over your face as he grabs your legs and pulls them up.
âDon't give me those eyes, I know what you want,â He grunts as he watches you move the pillow off your face just for him to push it back down, âWe'll make it quick.â
His fingers loop under his belt buckle, undoing the hold clasp enough that he could unzip his pants. He let your legs rest against his left shoulder as he turned his attention to your clothing, slipping your pyjama pants off and all the way to your slide off your ankles.
Callahan pulls his own boxers down enough so his dick could spring out, sighing at the shameless sight of his own erection. He never understood how you could get under his skin this much.
Binding your legs with a hand squeezing your calves together, he pushes them up a little bit more until they're a 90 degree angle to your body.
âYou get wet so quick,â He chastises you as if that's a bad thing. As if he isn't eagerly sliding the underside of his cock along your slit, scoffing at the way your legs jump from the contact. âKeep still, don't kick me,â he groans, breaching your cunt with his tip before shoving the rest of himself inside you.
He comes to cage your thighs with the curl of his arm as his chest presses flush against the underside of your legs. From this angle he can look down at how your fingers dig into the pillow, holding it to your face just to ground yourself. A little part of him wants to murmur praise, but he pushes that down when he remembers the whole reason why you're here.
You were a criminal.
That thought alone triggered the muscles in Callahan's hand to clench around the soft skin of your leg, imprinting the pads of his finger into you. He bottomed out, leaning forward so he could thrust even deeper past the warm clutch of your body.
âFuck.â Callahan curses beneath his breath as the vulgar sound of wet flesh slapping against flesh rung through his ears like a high frequency. Your small whines and whimpers were drowned out by the fluff of the pillow while he continues to pound into you as if it were punishment for seemingly nothing.
He let out a louder groan, head tilting off to the side as he loses himself in you, relishing in how your pussy clenched around him like a warm embrace. He mumbled about being close paired with a few degrading words that you could barely hear behind the pillow.
Callahan's hips still as he grips your legs just a tad tighter, stuffing you full of his cum. He keeps himself plugged in your cunt, taking a breather to come down from the high. Through post-orgasm bliss leaving the both of you dazed and satisfied, neither you or Callahan could hear the gentle click of the door opening.
âSir? Are you alright? i hear gruntingââ
That almost whimpish voiceâwhich you didn't recogniseâwas enough for you to peek over the pillow to see a man with tacky platinum hair and black rimmed glasses standing in the doorway. He seemed to be dressed in a police uniform of sorts, too crisp to be anyone of high authority.
Though you can feel the gradual stiffening of Callahan's dick still nestled inside of you, which undoubtedly pulls a cocky remark from your mouth, âYou're into that?â You manage to speak your mind before Callahan is pressing the pillow against your face once more.
âOh. Woahâ Uh, I mean... I didn't mean to intrude I justââ The officer's stammering pulled a long sigh from Callahan and a pinch to his nose bridge.
âIf you keep pressing the pillow to his face you're going to suffocate him...â He shifts awkwardly on the spot, eyes darting everywhere but where you and Callahan are connected.
Youâdramaticallyâgasp for air once Callahan removes the pillow from your face, turning your head to look at the man standing in the doorway.
âIf you care about this criminal so much why don't you look after him?â Callahan scoffs as he scrutinises Alastair, observing the way the platinum haired officer shuffled around on the spot like a restless dog. Though Callahan may find it highly irritating, the way Alastair is so carefully averting his gaze from your half naked form is somewhat endearing.
âWhat are you still staring at? You want a turn?â Callahan pulls out of you, suppressing a groan as he sees white leak out of your hole the second he's not stuffed inside you. He haphazardly wipes himself with a tissue before stuffing his still stiff dick into his pants.
âSeems like you're a fucking virgin at your age,â Callahan doesn't even bother to clean you up before he's shifting his spot on the bed to sit behind you. He grabs your waist as he handles you in a position where your back is against his chest. Its oddly domestic, too affectionate for you to relax against him.
âBut would yourâ companion, want... that?â He circles the bed to stand at the end of your feet, covering his eyes so he's not staring at your crotch.
âIf he didn't he'd be scrambling out of my grip.â Callahan's hand curls around your side, digging into the skin beneath your ribcage.
âDo something,â Callahan growls. He can feel you tense awkwardly under Alastair's quiet gaze, and he hates that. âOr do I have to teach you?â
Alastair lowers his hand from his eyes, pupils dilating enough to cover the color of his iris. He gawks for a bitâcan't pull his eyes away from the erotic sight of his superiors cum dripping out from your slick cunt. It's vile, unprofessional, and yet Alastair can't help but stare.
Callahan drawls out a sigh, fingers descending your body as he roughly plunges them inside your pussy. The curl of his fingers makes you writhe, mostly out of the abruptness of it. He scoops out his own seed, the sticky substance coats his fingers like honey, and he brings it to your mouth. He prods at your lips with the tips of his hand, half smearing the white along your mouth before you part them enough to take it.
Alastair stares, frozen like a deer and growing an inexplicable boner from the sight. The way you let Callahan to do that, and even swirl your warm tongue over his knuckles, evokes a strange warmth in his gut.
âLean your head down,â Callahan is already barking out commands before Alastair can snap out of his lewd fantasies. He follows accordingly, its an order after all. Alastair lowers his face until its just shy of your body. He can feel the gentle heat radiating off of you.
âDon't get all too excited, rookie, make him feel good before you stick your tongue in,â it's like scolding a disobedient dog with the way Alastair pulls back into his shoulders as if to hide away from his harsh tone.
He places one hand on your inner thigh, immediately retracting it when he feels the muscle twitch under his touch. Alastair's mouth slowly opens and his tongue darts out to sample a taste. You can feel Callahan's fingers tighten around your body absent-mindedly as he practically seethes at how wimpish Alastair is.
âI'm about to die of old age before I can hear him moan,â Callahan grunts, finally caving in as he snakes his hand to your front, roughly pressing on your clit with his index finger. The sudden pressure to your nerves gets a whine bubbling in your throat.
There's something so alluring to how your eyes flutter shut, lips parted and the prettiest noises spill from your mouth just from one touch. Alastair's only seen your face from blurred security footage or low quality images, but never this close and this expressive.
There's a small fluttering in his stomach before he moves without second thought.
Alastair's tongue meets your folds, delving in-between the crevices like he's licking syrup off of his morning toast. His tongue delves out to brush against your opening like licking along your bottom lip when kissing. The stark contrast between the two confuses your body. Callahan is so ruthlessly circling your bundle of nerves with just one finger, yet Alastair is so gently exploring every dip and crevice of your cunt.
âYou're enjoying this aren't you?â A deep rumble comes from behind you as Callahan's free hand curls around the column of your throat. âBeing tongue-fucked by some cop? What kind of thief are you?â
Though, Callahan doesn't squeeze, nor apply any pressure. He just holds, feeling your pulse quicken as Alastair's tongue delves past your hole and into your wet channel.
âI bet you he's no better than a machine,â he growls âYou know I'd do better, but I wouldn't want to put my mouth anywhere near this dirty pussy.â
Callahan lifts his hand up just to bring it back down with a sharp slap to your clit, musing at the way Alastair flinches upon having Callahanâs hand come down so quickly right in front of his face.
Youâd feel badâ
If he wasnât currently sucking you off like his life depended on it.
Alastair is pathetically hard by now; his pants are straining so much he swears he can hear the rip of thread from it. He drags his tongue along the warm walls of your cunt, savoring the way you clench and groan from the sensationâheâs so shamefully picturing how his superior would break through the clench of your pussy, drive himself deeper until he hits your cervix, and how youâd let all those sweet, deliberately loud noises to provoke him further.
You see Callahanâs free handâthe one that wasnât cradling the curve of your throatâmove down to Alastairâs hair, and for a moment, you believe heâs going to thread his fingers between those platinum strands and brush the hair out of his face.
He didnât.
It wouldnât be Callahan if he did.
His fingers curled into Alastairâs scalp, grabbing a fistful of hair like pulling roots from the soil. With a sharp tug, Callahan pries Alastair off of you, holding his head up like heâd just dunked the man in a bucket of water. Alastair doesnât fight itâin fact, he lifts his head to meet eyes with you, dazed like heâd taken his first sip of alcohol when he was eighteen.
Callahan merely scoffs at the sight as he moves his hand from your throat, down your stomach, and to your reddened sex. He doesnât care for foreplay, especially from how close you were to the end. It slid in a little too easy, his fingers entering with a sickening squelch. Knuckle-deep, Callahan curls just enough to bump your g-spot.
âAhâ fuck.â You jolt, jerking against the weight of Callahanâs arm draped over your body. He alternates between curling his fingers and thrusting his fingers shallowly before he widens the thrusts, fingering you with a new found energy.
He sees Alastair, all round eyes, dumber than a deer in headlights.
And he canât help but get a little irked at that.
âOpen.â Callahan curls his fist tighter in Alastairâs hair, shaking him a little to get him out of that daze. When Alastair finally comes to his senses he rolls his mouth open, tongue slicked with saliva like he was fucking salivating.
The back and forth movement of Callahanâs hand gets more intense, drawing out your orgasm with each press against your walls, punishing your sweet spot. Your incessant squirming and whining grates on Callahanâs nerves; youâre enjoying yourself a little too much. He slams his palm down harder with each thrust in, deliberately hitting your clit with a force that bordered pain. âJust cum already, Iâm done dealing with you.â He growls lowly in your ear, yanking Alastair closer to your body as he hooks his fingers inside of you, harshly pressing against that one spot. Your restrain slips, and the next thing you know, Callahan is angling Alastairâs head to catch your orgasm in his mouth. Alastairâs left eye flickers shut, feeling the warmth of your cum splatter across his face as he eagerly swallows what heâs given.
Callahanâs grip loosens, falling away from Alastairâs hair before he chucks a blanket over your body, wrapping you up in the fabric like he was shielding you from Alastairâs wandering eyes.
âGo get yourself fixed up. Weâll talk when youâre done.â
#servicpop â fics/drabbles#bottom male reader#x bottom male reader#ftm reader#uke reader#sub male reader#oc x male reader#x ftm reader#oc x reader#afab reader#mlm nsft
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one day i'll have to use something else as pfp but for now... trans haro....
#it's easy for my main i always use a drawing of me/my sona#but i never know what to use for side accounts#do i use any drawing i like or shitpost art or meme of irl pic or whattt#âyou can use whatever you wantâ THAT'S THE PROBLEM#never let me choose i don't know how to choose anything#that's why i'm following the rule of âmy pfp on main is supposed to represent me so i just use art of myselfâ#it's not for any reason that if i wasn't doing that i would have no idea of what to choose
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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Chat there is a disturbance in my bones most unsound [I realised I might be iffy sharing the trio with non-friends]
#it's more specifically the fact i hate being reminded hoe popular of an f/o Red is#fuck i can't blame em he's wonderful#my love is unique because it's me. same for them. and i respect that#i can't help but pull the sad s/pongebob face though like babe who IS this i thought i was the only one.......... heemheemwhimper#weirdly i don't mind sharing Duck and/or Yellow that much depending on Vibe.#in fact i get happy seeing someone selfship with Yellow hell yeah the world is healing!!! and Duck is the Best One he deserves-#-as many partners as he'd like.#but with Red. see i don't even mind people who lust after him. i'm very for it if it makes the purists scared yaknow#i'd rather defend someone mildly annoying than let someone say finding a fictional character attractive is morally wrong#but selfshippers. idk. i get gutpunched and reminded i'll just be seen as another person downbad for Red#my love for him goes beyond that. i don't need to prove it. but i'll be taken at face value and that's something i need to make peace with.#that no matter how i word things or how in detail i explain i Will be taken as dumb and/or insane. even though i'm not#that because i don't just selfship with Red but the other two aswell. even though i see them all as adults-#most people just assume otherwise and choose a more 'wholesome' looking ship instead#i don't want other peoples' outside validation. sometimes i feel like i should bc everyone else does.#i feel deeply selfish in blocking people for comfort. i hope they know i don't hold anything against them or hate them in any way.#i try to explain how much these three mean to me but i can never truly find the words. i've gotten close though.
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@oripoke @bo-beanies Why was i just this object for you to use, abuse, and then ghost? Like im garbage? There were days I literally could never put my phone down because I was 24.7 comforting bean. Id have to hide and be quiet in the bottom room, just to talk to Rory on the phone for a few minutes, or bean would get would get wildly upset at me if they saw. I couldnt even take my phone out in any way or say the wrong things, because i knew what would happen, and i was terrified. And yet, when i freak about the abuse you did to me then and later, doubled with my brothers abuse- when i did it, you abandoned me like i was nothing. Id have stayed by your side for months until you felt better, and you knew that, but either of you talking to me for 2 minutes was too much effort, no matter how badly i needed it.
I was always there for both of you, even when it radically hurt me. I tried so hard to keep bean happy, for MONTHS, but when it was my turn to need help i was abandoned, hated, tossed away like I was nothing, and mocked. Of course i snapped. You have no idea how much pain you put me in, to do all of that to me and then you *both* dissappear without a word. Then i was on the streets, and everything just got worse. My disorder is not something i could control. After 7 months of being tortured like this, begging for communication for just a few minutes, but i was still not a person to you i was just an object or a toy, you were both done with me so why bother? Why talk to this thing? I was just a pet for you two to keep.
The pain was too immense for me to handle, each month it just got worse. It hurt so badly. I cant describe it and i wouldnt wish it on even the most evil soul. It's agony. No human deserves what i had to go through- nobody. It was both mental and physical hell. Do you know how painful my med increases were, too, but i still did them because thats what you told me to do? I STILL listened and trusted you because i cared. And you still treated me like dirt, and im the one that has to pay for it in the hospital, in debt, in isolation and immense pain. Im the one that has to pay for all the trauma, pain and suffering that I had no control over.
I did everything you both asked of me even when it was hard, contradicting and confusing. Id never asked either of you for ANYTHING. Not ever. All I asked for was to talk, to help me with this stupid fucking disorder, but after everything I went through and how hard I tried and everything i suffered. Instead of being there, instead of responding to the only thing ive *ever* needed from either of you, neither of you did it. You ghosted me, and left me to die. TWICE
You may not believe this, but i don't. Want. To. Be. Like. This. I didnt choose to have this disorder, i dont choose the attacks that happen, and when i attempt suicide its *NOT* for attention like you scream at me. Its to make. The pain. Stop. Its so immense, the only thing that goes in my head is "stop, make it stop, please make it stop" and i try and escape from my body to make the suffering end. There's no other way to escape your own mind but to die. And drugs, which I've gotten even further sick for abusing, but nothing else fucking helps
I dont WANT to be like this. You all act like its a choice i made?? I dont control the disorder i got from my brothers abuse. i dont *WANT* to talk to any of you or even think about you ever again. But that's the thing about mental illness, its crazy because it is, and when I said it wont fucking let me.... i mean IT WONT FUCKING LET ME. Could you ask a schizophrenic person to stop seeing demons?? "Like hey dude, just stop seeing them. Have you tried just stopping?" I know pea had fun mocking me, and you all had a good laugh, "lmaooo you couldn't even not do it for a single day"- i didnt choose to be like this. And when i needed your help, so incredibly desperately. You were gone. Rory told me he loved me more than hes ever loved anyone, he had told me i could always talk to him if i was hurting, he told me it was okay, he reassured me he was there for me and that it was completely okay. I didnt know i was doing something wrrong, if you dont tell me, how would i know? Rory, you told me it was okay. You did. Then you disappeared without even saying goodbye
After 7 months of this. 7 months of confusion, not understanding whats going on or whats even happening to me or where ill sleep the next day. Living the way I was living. Constantly hurt and abused and hungry and infected, mourning everything i lost. You can never give me back my cat, or the opportunities i lost, my trans health care, my savings. You cant undo the immense pain I've felt and you cant reverse the trauma you've caused.
Yes, I hurt you too. I did fucked up things, too. But not. And I repeat. Not until after 7 months of this mental and physical torture. I couldnt take it anymore
And I *still* kept trying. I *still* am. BECAUSE THATS WHAT YOU TOLD ME TO DO. My meds are at 220mg and excruciating, therapy is so incredibly confusing, but im still doing it even if i desperately dont want to. But you two can ghost me and torture me, because you didnt want to talk to me for a few minutes, and explain what I didnt understand. Instead you left me in the dark. While you were both going to *another* con just months later, and sleeping comfortably, and going to parties and weddings; i was still in the hospital, with nowhere to go, in incredible pain, for an incredibly long time, from events you directly caused and couldnt even apolgize for. Do you understand the mental toll it does on a person when you have no one, and i mean NO ONE, and no where to go, with the situations I had to face..do you know what that does to a person? I went to hospital hospital, reaching out, just more and more confused, just more and more hurt.
While im going through all this, as if im not a real human being behind your computer; besides peas ranting the only things i recieved are "man my notifications" "man this sucks" "Yeah I hate it" like im an "it" a toy or a thing. Parading my dead name is a close contender, but its the amount of lies that hurt me the most.I did not do revenge porn and post it on porn sites, I did not ever have any kind of conversation with rory OR bean, I did not fake being in a coma for 2 weeks, I was very much fucking out (though I did decide to ghost my entire fandom in self harm, they knew I was in the hospital but I just told them i never woke up.) My attempts have been very real and very painful, I made myself take pictures and I have the fucking discharge papers from every single one, because I've been telling the truth and can PROVE IT. I did so much I didnt want to do. I went through so much I didnt want to. You broke my boundaries and abused me, i gave up so much of myself and my safety and my life for you, and it was okay. But im now the criminal, your boundaries > my life. Your notifications>my human life. Nobody's reading this, nobody gives a fuck, im never going to hear anything other then "man this is so shitty, we destroyed his life and his mental, but hes really clogging up my notifications and that makes him the most evil, horrible, awful and disgusting person in the world. Let him die so I can get some quiet." "Urgh omg I cant believe i have to post this". That's all it ever is. That's all its ever going to be3
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i hate getting gifts because first of all are you trying to buy me make me feel obligated to you so I feel the need to be polite and sweet to you all the time and secondly once you inevitably leave what the fuck am i supposed to do with them
#bro these glow in the dark stickers on my ceiling#when i got them i felt so loved and adored for the first time in my life like wow someone#actually cares about me enough to listen to my wandering petty musings#and they comforted me so much at nights like there's light in darkness#now all i want to do is rip them off and burn them#but i already feel so alone in this house#i just feel like if i remove them then this house won't have anything of me like sure some of my clothes#are here some books but my bed was so messsy when i came mom was using it as storage and my study table#was completely unusable mom had put so much stuff like 5 suitcases under it and on top of it more stuff#like um okay i get that i was gone for 3 months but wow you wrote me off pretty quickly huh#like I dont belong here anymore#my dad already says that place isn't my house whenever he gets mad at me or when im not disciplined#like you guys. i wanted to move out at 18 you forced me to live here and now you're sick of me?#lol okay#fuck how will i ever get over this#i was watching that movie today and peter has abandonment issues and he got so upset when lj#was going to move away far from him he was like ok fine since u choose to go so far away let's break up now#because I dont want to wait till 5-6 months and then do it like let's just do it now#like that's such a classic me move being in control of when the relationship ends so you don't have to be there#when the other person completely loses interest and leaves you first#and you know how it got fixed? his dad told him that he loves him and that he's never gonna leave him again#like lol that's not gonna happen to me so i have to find a way to be ok without it#đŽâđ¨#pity party of one pls look away everyone
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@oripoke @bo-beanies Why was i just this object for you to use, abuse, and then ghost? Like im garbage? There were days I literally could never put my phone down because I was 24.7 comforting bean. Id have to hide and be quiet in the bottom room, just to talk to Rory on the phone for a few minutes, or bean would get would get wildly upset at me if they saw. I couldnt even take my phone out in any way or say the wrong things, because i knew what would happen, and i was terrified. And yet, when i freak about the abuse you did to me then and later, doubled with my brothers abuse- when i did it, you abandoned me like i was nothing. Id have stayed by your side for months until you felt better, and you knew that, but either of you talking to me for 2 minutes was too much effort, no matter how badly i needed it.
I was always there for both of you, even when it radically hurt me. I tried so hard to keep bean happy, for MONTHS, but when it was my turn to need help i was abandoned, hated, tossed away like I was nothing, and mocked. Of course i snapped. You have no idea how much pain you put me in, to do all of that to me and then you *both* dissappear without a word. Then i was on the streets, and everything just got worse. My disorder is not something i could control. After 7 months of being tortured like this, begging for communication for just a few minutes, but i was still not a person to you i was just an object or a toy, you were both done with me so why bother? Why talk to this thing? I was just a pet for you two to keep.
The pain was too immense for me to handle, each month it just got worse. It hurt so badly. I cant describe it and i wouldnt wish it on even the most evil soul. It's agony. No human deserves what i had to go through- nobody. It was both mental and physical hell. Do you know how painful my med increases were, too, but i still did them because thats what you told me to do? I STILL listened and trusted you because i cared. And you still treated me like dirt, and im the one that has to pay for it in the hospital, in debt, in isolation and immense pain. Im the one that has to pay for all the trauma, pain and suffering that I had no control over.
I did everything you both asked of me even when it was hard, contradicting and confusing. Id never asked either of you for ANYTHING. Not ever. All I asked for was to talk, to help me with this stupid fucking disorder, but after everything I went through and how hard I tried and everything i suffered. Instead of being there, instead of responding to the only thing ive *ever* needed from either of you, neither of you did it. You ghosted me, and left me to die. TWICE
You may not believe this, but i don't. Want. To. Be. Like. This. I didnt choose to have this disorder, i dont choose the attacks that happen, and when i attempt suicide its *NOT* for attention like you scream at me. Its to make. The pain. Stop. Its so immense, the only thing that goes in my head is "stop, make it stop, please make it stop" and i try and escape from my body to make the suffering end. There's no other way to escape your own mind but to die. And drugs, which I've gotten even further sick for abusing, but nothing else fucking helps
I dont WANT to be like this. You all act like its a choice i made?? I dont control the disorder i got from my brothers abuse. i dont *WANT* to talk to any of you or even think about you ever again. But that's the thing about mental illness, its crazy because it is, and when I said it wont fucking let me.... i mean IT WONT FUCKING LET ME. Could you ask a schizophrenic person to stop seeing demons?? "Like hey dude, just stop seeing them. Have you tried just stopping?" I know pea had fun mocking me, and you all had a good laugh, "lmaooo you couldn't even not do it for a single day"- i didnt choose to be like this. And when i needed your help, so incredibly desperately. You were gone. Rory told me he loved me more than hes ever loved anyone, he had told me i could always talk to him if i was hurting, he told me it was okay, he reassured me he was there for me and that it was completely okay. I didnt know i was doing something wrrong, if you dont tell me, how would i know? Rory, you told me it was okay. You did. Then you disappeared without even saying goodbye
After 7 months of this. 7 months of confusion, not understanding whats going on or whats even happening to me or where ill sleep the next day. Living the way I was living. Constantly hurt and abused and hungry and infected, mourning everything i lost. You can never give me back my cat, or the opportunities i lost, my trans health care, my savings. You cant undo the immense pain I've felt and you cant reverse the trauma you've caused.
Yes, I hurt you too. I did fucked up things, too. But not. And I repeat. Not until after 7 months of this mental and physical torture. I couldnt take it anymore
And I *still* kept trying. I *still* am. BECAUSE THATS WHAT YOU TOLD ME TO DO. My meds are at 220mg and excruciating, therapy is so incredibly confusing, but im still doing it even if i desperately dont want to. But you two can ghost me and torture me, because you didnt want to talk to me for a few minutes, and explain what I didnt understand. Instead you left me in the dark. While you were both going to *another* con just months later, and sleeping comfortably, and going to parties and weddings; i was still in the hospital, with nowhere to go, in incredible pain, for an incredibly long time, from events you directly caused and couldnt even apolgize for. Do you understand the mental toll it does on a person when you have no one, and i mean NO ONE, and no where to go, with the situations I had to face..do you know what that does to a person? I went to hospital hospital, reaching out, just more and more confused, just more and more hurt.
While im going through all this, as if im not a real human being behind your computer; besides peas ranting the only things i recieved are "man my notifications" "man this sucks" "Yeah I hate it" like im an "it" a toy or a thing. Parading my dead name is a close contender, but its the amount of lies that hurt me the most.I did not do revenge porn and post it on porn sites, I did not ever have any kind of conversation with rory OR bean, I did not fake being in a coma for 2 weeks, I was very much fucking out (though I did decide to ghost my entire fandom in self harm, they knew I was in the hospital but I just told them i never woke up.) My attempts have been very real and very painful, I made myself take pictures and I have the fucking discharge papers from every single one, because I've been telling the truth and can PROVE IT. I did so much I didnt want to do. I went through so much I didnt want to. You broke my boundaries and abused me, i gave up so much of myself and my safety and my life for you, and it was okay. But im now the criminal, your boundaries > my life. Your notifications>my human life. Nobody's reading this, nobody gives a fuck, im never going to hear anything other then "man this is so shitty, we destroyed his life and his mental, but hes really clogging up my notifications and that makes him the most evil, horrible, awful and disgusting person in the world. Let him die so I can get some quiet." "Urgh omg I cant believe i have to post this". That's all it ever is. That's all its ever going to be3
so⌠Albedo are you free on friday night bc i'm free on friday night for a date, you know on friday night
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farmer!kĂśnig Ă female!reader
warnings: +18, smut, arranged marriage, breeding kink!
kĂśnig never thought that the love of his life would take so long to arrive, much less in such a small town where he lived and where everyone knew everyone. but yes, he just turned 30 he found himself totally alone, without a wife, girlfriend or even someone to fuck with without commitments.
being an only child, his parents rushed to find the right woman for him. they had to ensure that their legacy would continue and their lands would be passed down to their future grandchildren.
that's where you come in, also the only daughter of a couple of lumberjacks and with a long list of suitors. although you could choose any boy in the town, your parents quickly paired you with kĂśnig, who was the son of the wealthiest family in the place.
you didn't know kĂśnig personally but you had seen him from time to time on the streets driving his truck carrying fruits and vegetables to supply the businesses. you knew that he was older than you, not only in age but also in body. he always had a serious face and a look that forced you to lower your head because of how intimidating he was.
your families introduced you one day where they had lunch and talked about how beneficial it would be for both of you to get married. kĂśnig didn't contribute much, as he spent all that time looking at your breasts through your dress and biting his lip every time you dared to look into his eyes. neither you nor he spoke to each other.
after that, they organized a small wedding in the garden of kĂśnig's family and formalized the union between the two of you. you were now his wife and lived with him in a small house built by kĂśnig on his family land. however, the most important thing was missing, an heir.
you both knew that your families would not be calm until they saw you carrying his baby in your womb. that's why you and kĂśnig had to get closer to each other, both emotionally and physically. every time he came back from a long day of work, you would wait for him with a jug of fresh orange juice or even a beer. then you would prepare the shower for him, where kĂśnig would end up dragging you with him and you would shower together. he caressed your skin with excitement and you did the same but with a certain shyness. however, it never went any further, until now.
one afternoon you were harvesting vegetables from the garden until the presence of kĂśnig behind you caught your attention.
"it's time... for us to have a son."
kĂśnig was wearing his work shirt with a few buttons open and his blue jeans. he looked agitated, as if he needed you at that moment.
"kĂśnig... i, i don't know. i've never done it and i'm a little scared..."
you couldn't finish because kĂśnig knelt in front of you and grabbed your hips with his hands.
"please, please, let me fuck you. i can't wait any longer, my love, i need you.."
he begged with some pain in his voice, resting his head on your stomach and almost sobbing. his cock was throbbing inside his jeans and dripping with precum. your heart sank at seeing him so needy, so you accepted.
without wasting time, kĂśnig fucked you right there in his garden and on the ground, in a primitive way. your pussy took a while to get used to its size but soon the pain turned into pleasure. kĂśnig was on top of you, with your legs over his shoulders and his balls hitting your delicate skin.
"i knew this pussy was worth the wait... fuck, you're so tight."
kĂśnig kissed your legs, leaving a trace of his saliva and even lightly biting your skin, lost in pleasure. his grunts accompanied your moans and pleas for him to finish inside you as soon as possible, you were afraid that you would be discovered.
"these juicy tits, they're going to look even better when they're big and dripping with milk... are you going to carry my babies, huh? are you going to be a good mom?"
you nodded your head because your mouth couldn't let out anything but moans. kĂśnig increased his thrusts, fucking deep inside you until he filled you with his thick semen.
he gently lay down on top of you, careful not to crush you until his orgasm passed. he carefully pulled out of you, caressing your legs and putting the cum that came out back in with his fingers.
"i have to make sure it catch, mommy."
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The roles have been reversed. Toji Fushiguro is your landlordâŚ..How do you pay rent with no money???

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"SlowerâŚslowerâŚunggghhhhâŚplease go s-slower"
The whole bed is rocking back and forth. You swear it's an earthquake in your room. The ceiling light looks like it could fall any moment right onto you both
The man whose fucking you is so huge. His dick is fucking you up, it hurts so good.
he knows you secretly like it rough, which is why he doesn't take all your whining seriously. He always wants to see just how much more can you take.
You didn't really have a choice here. He's gonna keep ramming his thick cock into your tight cunt like there's no tommrow
Your moans get muffled by the pillow your holding onto for life. Although your relationship with this man may be undeclared, you are definitely sure about one thing, he has an insatiable sex drive
"Toji l'm begging you.. no more. we already did it in the morning"
It's true, he had dropped by unexpectedly right when you woke up earlier today, demanding you strip and bend over.
But considering the short time between then and now. Your whole body is much more sensitive reacting to each and everyone of his naughty touches.
Heâs going to fast and hard, he's just ignoring your pleading, you're begging him to be more gentle
But instead he just keeps thrusting and leans down, holding you by your chin to kiss your puffy lips, with so much lust, this is his best attempt to shut you up. He loves the way you look back at him
His tight squeeze on your butt is making red indentations. You just wish his grip was a bit less aggressive, you weren't gonna run away or anything, you know there is no way to escape this tank of a man
"Stop... *squelch* ..complaing *squelch* ...when this hungry hole of yours can't seem to let me go" his heavy breaths combine with his low laughing.
"...you fucking whore"
The way he dominates over you "puts you in your place" ...has made you develop a certain attachment to him
Between his degrading responses, he leaves hickeys all over your nape and soft shoulders even biting the side of your neck, causing you to clench your pussy, suffocating his massive cock. He groans and moans softly, bucking his hips with more force.
He's desperate to do his favourite thing as of late. Filling up your greedy cunt with his creamy cum. He knows your desperate you are for it too. They way your toes curl right when you orgasm and your body shivers expecting him to finish right with you. You're just waiting for him to cum inside.
This is how you pay your landlord and you're ashamed of it.
The sex was so mind blowing that you never really had the chance to really think about what you were really doing
But in reality your body was being used...used by the most sexiest man you have ever laid eyes on. You find everything about him attractive, to the way he talks to how good he is at aftercare
But you often wonder, how will you ever develop or even create a proper relationship if he only sees you to fuck you, and the way he fucks you makes you incapable to speak after...every single time.
You just wish you had money so you could pay him real payments.
But your a full time college student, broke with no time for a job
You've tried to talk to him about this before but they way he always undresses you with his eyes just makes you forget anything that was ever in your mind.
After he finishes in you, you sigh in relief, maybe now's your chance to talk
"Toji, I-I was thinking about getting a job or something...u-uh so I could like pay you for real"
You don't move to face him. You choose to stay in the ass up face down position he's left you in, he's finally taking his big hands off your poor butt
But he keeps his dick inside of you as he whispers into your ear,
"you're my slut, so I don't need the money"
You do not respond. You're shameless pussy does all the talking instead. It started to pulse and twitch around his dick. Causing him to smirk at your reaction
He starts moving again, this time at a more manageable pace, making you feel every vien on his dick rub inside your walls
But alas, you do not have much strength left as you realiz hands are once again on your back holding you up, preventing you from collapsing
"You get tried so quickly baby...try your best to keep up"
how can he say that while he hasn't given you a proper break since you started??
You are no stranger to Toji's strength, after all he uses so much of it on you. Carrying you bridal style, holding you up against the wall, using his buff arms to trap you close. You can remember many past instances like those. This time you cum again rather quickly. you've lost count of how many orgasms you had.
Because of his semen pooling up in you, his dick is able to reach even deeper, sliding in easily with each thrust
"it's too.. deep" you whine still knowing he will just try harder to go further in
"Where is it?" He asks with a cocky expression
You stick out your ass more as you place your hand on your stomach. You feel the bulge his dick makes. He puts his hand on your hand pressing up on your belly making you whimper.
"Can you feel it better now hmm"
You don't know why but you nod. After seeing you have finally stopped whining a bit he starts talking again in a low voice
"I'm sorry for being rough...honestly I just can't help myself" his voice is so deep and manly you could listen to him talk for hours.
He pulls out and takes a sip of water from the nightstand. He thinks you can't take anymore
Your cheeks blush a dark shade of pink, why does he talk so sweet all of a sudden. You really feel humiliated now.
The whole time you were practically begging him to stop slower and now you want him to continue after he stopped on his own??? After he apologized so sweetly??
Were you that much of a whore that the moment he pulled out, you wish he didn't
He starts kissing you all over your back, trying to get you to face him and lay on your back but you wouldn't budge. He's never really forceful with you, you know his dirty talk is always an act to get you as wet as possible. A trail of his his saliva on your back from affectionate kisses making you feel adored.
You are embarrassed by the fact that you want another round
But you don't know what your doing to him. He's trying his hardest, controlling himself not to put his dick back into your gaping hole filled with his fluids.
He tries to hold himself back instead, continuing to kiss the back of your thighs, moving his face closer and closer to the inside of your legs, inches away from your dripping pussy.
Of course he's teasing you by not let his lips actually reach your needy pussy, but his hot breath on it, is making you squirm underneath his tight embrace
"Toji...can we do it again... please?" you say extremely quietly
He knew you would give in. His dick has stayed rock hard but your words are now making it throb
"you're such a slut for me baby, m'gonna fuck you so hard you're gonna regret asking"
He thrusted in you with so much force, at the same time pulling you towards him to take all of him in at once. Yup, you definitely beileved what he just said.
And so he does as promised and you try your best not to pass out while he fucks you sensless for the remainder of the nightđ
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champagne coast // ln4



pairing:Â lando norris X reader
word count:Â 19k
warnings:Â cursing and alcohol use
includes:Â friends to lovers, summer!lando, clueless reader and lando, pining, fluff, and a little angst
summary:Â when lando and you spend summer break together you don't expect italy to eventually hold such a special place in your heart... or lando and you go on vacation and everyone keeps thinking you're a couple.
playlist for the fic: spotify | apple music
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It was the Monday before the Belgium Grand Prix when Lando asked â what are you doing for summer break?
The sun had started to set over the coast, its golden reflection rippling across the water and onto the balcony of Landoâs Monaco apartment. The same balcony that the two of you currently resided on, choosing to share the wicker couch instead of one of you sitting in one of the empty chairs.
You were sat sideways on the couch with your legs crossed, your view consisting more of Lando than the picturesque sunset over the sea. A cheap bottle of pink moscato, which was your favorite, was sitting on the table where Lando had his feet propped up.
Heâd always complain about how sweet it was, but then drink more of it than you. In all reality, heâd actually grown to love it because of you, but heâd never tell you that. Heâd only been able to find it at one place in Monaco, so when he knew you were coming to visit he always made sure to have a couple bottles on hand and maybe a bottle for himself when he was missing you.
Your eyes met his as you processed his question. This right now was your summer vacation. He surely knew that, right? âSummer break? I donât have a summer break like you do, Lando.â It was true, you had barely managed to get this week off from work to be able to go to Belgium, let alone have a month off. âI figured me being here for a couple days then going to Belgium would be my vacation.â
A disapproving sigh escapes past his lips as he speaks. âThat is not a vacation.â
âWell it sure as hell beats being stuck at an office in London.â
He downed the remainder of the wine in his glass and fully turned his body towards you. His arm resting across the back of the couch, his fingers nearly touching you. âI think you should come with me on vacation.â
You stifle a groan by taking a drink of your wine. âLando, you know I donât do Ibiza. It's not my kind of place, especially this time of year.â It was a beautiful place no doubt, but the big party scene was not your favorite. And the couple times you had gone with Lando and your shared friend group it was so chaotic and you had a hangover that lasted for what seemed like a week. So noâ Ibiza and you werenât the best of friends.
âWho said anything about Ibiza?â Heâs got a smirk toying at the corners of his lips, you can tell by the way his upper lip twitches slightly. Not that you stare at his lips that much to be able to notice that kind of thing.
âLando Norris not going to Ibiza during his summer break? Should I alert the press? Did you hit your head? Are you running a fever?â You lean forward to check his temperature, but he playfully swatted away your hand with a giggle before you could get close enough. âHave you broken the news to Fewt-â
That smirk had fully developed across his face as he cut you off. âWho said anything about Max?â
Now you really thought that heâd bumped his head or was slightly tipsy already. You cocked an eyebrow at him in question. âWhere are you going then? Especially without Max?â
Lando leaned back, the wicker creaking beneath him, but his eyes were still trained on you. Golden hour had made them even more blue, resembling the crystal blue water that was just a short walk away. âIâm going wherever you want to go.â
âLando.â
âY/N.â Heâs the one to cock an eyebrow now.
âI canât go with you.â
His smirk had turned into a pout and he knew how to work those big blue eyes, especially on you. âWhy not? Wherever you want to goâ we will go. Not many people get that opportunity Y/N.â
You go to take another drink and realize your glass is empty, but before you can reach for the bottle Landoâs already got it in his hands, reaching over slightly to pour you another glass. âWho all is going then if Max isnât going?â
He sets the bottle back down on the table, hesitating for a moment before speaking. You two are close, probably the closest friend he has compared to Max, but he worries that you wonât be up for what heâs about to suggest. âIt would just be me and you.â
You feel your cheeks get hot at his proposal, but you shake it off, blaming it on the wine.
As much as the idea of Lando and you going on a trip together sounds amazing, you just donât think you can make it work. You live a normal life and being able to just go on lavish trips at the drop of a hat is not something you get to experience, no matter how much Lando wants you to or you would like to.
âI would love to Lan, but I don't think I could get the time off again.â Your finger nervously circles the rim of the wine glass as you contemplate even bringing your other reason up. Mainly because you know what his answer will be, but against your better judgment you take another swig of the wine as liquid courage before telling him the embarrassing truth. âI also just canât afford it.â
And without skipping a beat he blurts out. âIâll pay.â Youâre immediately shaking your head no, but before you can verbally deny his offer heâs speaking again âSeriously Y/N. I will pay. Itâs not a big deal.â
Except him paying your way for this trip is a big deal. Just how itâs a big deal everytime you come and visit him in Monaco and he insists that you donât spend a dime while youâre here. Itâs bad enough that you stay at his place, let alone have him pay for your dinner every night. Or how he is always offering to fly you out to races on your free weekends. Or insisting that the random gifts he gives you donât cost that much, like you canât read the designer labels on the boxes or labels.
It makes you feel bad that you canât offer the same back to him. The constant worry that he might think you are using him for his money makes your stomach hurt because itâs the last thing youâd ever do. Heâs one of the most giving and kindest people you know and to be able to call him your best friend is something you treasure. And you truly hope he knows how much you appreciate everything he does for you, but how could he not when you tell him every chance you get.
âLando, really I cannot let you pay for me to go on vacation. Itâs one thing to let me crash at your apartment and for you to get me passes to races, which I appreciate more than you will ever know. But I draw the line at a whole vacation. I donât want to seem like a freeloader who is using you, thatâs honestly the la-â
âOh my god will you just let me spoil you!â Lando had enough of your endless rambling. Your need to always try and decline his gifts or offerings until he convinces you that you are worthy of them drives him crazy. To Lando there isnât a person on Earth who deserves everything and more than you. And the fact that he can afford to give you anything youâd ever want tickles him pink. Hell if it was possible, heâd buy you the whole damn universe, even if you hadnât asked for it.
âI hate that you thinkâ that I would think youâre using me. Never in a million years would I think that. You mean a lot to me Y/N, truly. Youâre one the most important people in my life and you deserve everything and more that I give you. If I thought you were using me, I would not be asking you to go on vacation with me, believe me. I love having you around and with us not seeing each other like we used to, I figured a trip with just the two of us would be nice.â
He pauses for a moment as he scoots a little closer to you on the couch, your legs touching as the glow from the sun envelopes around you two. âNow please donât try and worm your way out of this trip. Iâve missed you so much and if you donât end up going I think youâre just gonna have to move in with me.â
You roll your eyes at his dramatics, but try not to let his heartfelt words get to your head. âHow would I even get the time off work again? Tell them âOh my famous F1 driver best friend wants to take me on a trip. Can I please have some more time off?â I donât think that would work.â
âWell I think it would work. Especially if you add in that Iâm super hot.â
The giggles that come from you lets you know that youâve drank your fair share of wine for the evening. âOh I donât think they would ever tell me no If I added that in.â
âIf they do say no then just quit and Iâll get you a job somehow with McLaren or Quadrant or something. I just really want to go on this trip with you.â
You arenât sure if it's the wine in your system or the fact that you want nothing more right now than to spend a week with Lando in some beautiful country, without a care in the world. But you ignore every responsible and logical part of you and tell him what he wants to hear.
âAlright. So where are we going then?â
His eyes light up and the smile that spreads across his face is comparable to that first win smile. âThatâs all up to you baby.â
Both of your hearts skip a beat at the term of endearment that came from him. His because he canât believe he let it slip and yours because you canât believe he called you that so easily. But you both ignore it and you focus on the one place youâd had on your mind since he mentioned taking a trip.
âItaly?â You suggest with a hopeful smile on your face.
He fills up his glass with the last of the fruit juice like wine and holds it up towards you, your glasses clinking together in a toast. âItaly it is then.â
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Six days later an email notification pops up on your phone as youâre sitting in McLarenâs hospitality, talking with Landoâs Mom. You glance at who itâs from, not wanting to be rude and get on your phone mid conversation, but when you see your bossâs contact you canât help but open it. âIâm sorry, itâs from work.â Cisca waved you off, the conversation had only consisted of why they couldnât stock better snacks in hospitality, and she knew if work was emailing you on a Sunday it had to be important.
You had emailed them Monday night requesting the time off and when they hadnât responded by Friday you figured they were denying it. Or firing you for requesting more time off while currently being on a vacation. So to be getting this email on a Sunday had you worried, but as your eyes scanned the email you couldnât hold back the excitement. By some higher power unbestowed to you, they had granted you the time off.
âNever seen someone so excited over an email from work.â Cisca teased.
âYeah. Honestly thought I was getting fired, but they approved my time off for the Italy trip Lando and I are taking.â You leaned back in the chair, relief finally washing over you.
âJust the two of you?â Cisca had her suspicions about her sonâs feelings towards you and your feelings towards him. Sheâd secretly hoped the two of you would end up together the first time she met you years ago. She honestly thought you were his girlfriend that day and was surprised when he introduced you as his friend. Then she thought maybe he was hiding your relationship because she had never known her son to bring around a female friend like he had you.
You had attended family dinners, a couple holidays, races, and so many other things that just didnât seem normal to bring a friend to. They had become so accustomed to you being around that when he finally said that he was bringing home his girlfriend for everyone to meet and you didnât walk through the doorâ everyone was a little shell shocked. The relationship didnât last long and she had her theories as to why. To Cisca there was just no way the two of you didnât have feelings for eachother, she could see it plain as day, and it drove her crazy that the two of you didnât see it.
âYeah. At first I thought he was asking me to go to Ibiza again with everyone and you know me, itâs not my thing. But then he said we could go anywhere I wanted and that it was just me and him, so I chose Italy.â You gathered your things, eager to tell Lando the good news before race time. âYou raised a good man, Cisca. I couldnât ask for a better person in my life than him.â
Thereâs a smile on her face as she watches you talk about Lando, how your smile never falters and how that twinkle in your eye seems to get brighter the more you talk about him. âThank you honey. You had better go tell him, hadnât you?â
âIâll be back!â
Thankfully Landoâs not that hard to find, heâs in the garage looking over some data on the monitors with Will when you spot him. You stand back out of the way, waiting until heâs done, but as soon as he turns to walk away youâre racing towards him. Your arms flinging around him from behind and you can feel him tense under you, but when he hears your laughter his muscles relax.
âWhatâs got you in such a good mood?â Lando asks as he turns around to face you, his hands lingering on your hips.
âHmmm. It may have something to do with work approving my time off.â
That same smile from the other night finds its way onto his face and heâs pulling you into his arms, the two of you swaying back and forth as he nuzzles his head into your neck. âI knew they would approve it, it was meant to be.â His voice tickles your neck as he speaks causing a giggle to escape past your lips.
âCanât believe we get to spend a week together in Italy.â You state as he releases you from his grip.
âWouldnât have it any other way.â
You furrow your eyebrows at him, still not sure that he wouldnât rather be going to Ibiza with his friends.âYouâre sure youâre not gonna miss Ibiza?â
His fingers toy with the hem of your shirt as he speaksâ his blue eyes boring into yours. âIâd miss you more if I went.â And there isnât a single ounce of doubt in his words. If he ended up going to Ibiza without you, heâd be at a club wondering what you were doing. Eventually downing one too many shots to try and numb that annoying ache in his chest that forms when you arenât around. The one that even with you around this week, he had felt occasionally at the idea of you not being able to go to Italy.
The idea of him spending his summer break back in England had crossed his mind a couple times, especially if that meant he got to spend time with you. Luckily though fate was on his side today and he wouldnât have to deal with that ache for the foreseeable future.
You can feel the slight blush on your cheeks as you process what Lando had said to you and you pray he doesnât notice it. Just him simply saying heâd miss you if he went to Ibiza should not have you blushing, but here recently it seemed like that was all he could do was make you blush.
A familiar Australian accent hits your ears and around the corner comes Oscar, his hand clamping down on Landoâs shoulder as he comes up behind him. âY/N. Havenât seen you in awhile.â His bunny teeth showing as he flashes you a smile.
Your mouth barely opens to speak before Landoâs speaking for you. âI know. Sheâs been too busy working back in London to come see her favorite person.â
âIâm really such a horrible friend. Iâm so sorry Oscar, I really should make more time to see you. In fact, howâs Australia this time of year? I think I might come visit you.â The playful smirk on your face and Oscarâs laugh does nothing to tell Lando that youâre just joking and like a little kid heâs got his arms crossed across his chest with a slight pout on his face.
âUm. I think Iâm your favorite person Y/N. Plus you canât even go to Australia because we are going to Italy.â
Oscar and you canât help but laugh at Landoâs dramatics, but Oscar wants to tease Lando even further. He knows how his older teammate feels about you, even if Lando wonât give the idea any time of day when Oscar brings it up. Lando had confided in Oscar about his idea to take you on a trip, but Oscar didnât think heâd actually go through with it. âItaly? Whoâs all going? Maybe Lily and I could tag along?â
Landoâs eyes widen at Oscarâs suggestion, mainly because he knows youâd jump at any opportunity to spend time with Lily and this trip was meant to be just for the two of you. âItâs just gonna be me and Y/NâŚâ He trials off, trying to figure out how to nicely tell Oscar that he canât come.
âThere's a month between Singapore and Austin. We should all plan something for then.â You chime in. As much as you would love to spend time with Oscar and Lily, you really want to have this trip just be Lando and you.
Landoâs surprised at you turning down Oscarâs suggestion, but smiles and nods towards Oscar, agreeing with your idea. âYeah that sounds like a good idea.â Oscar states, a small smirk on his face as he eyes the two of you, fully knowing that youâll come back from Italy together. And if you donât Oscar thinks he may have to knock some sense into his teammate.
The driverâs parade was set to start soon, so you tell Oscar youâll see him around and give Lando a hug, knowing you wonât see him again until after the race. âIâll see you later, yeah? Be safe and good luck.â
Landoâs grip on you lingers, not wanting to fully let you go just yet, but when they get the final warning that itâs time to go he reluctantly frees you. A small frown on his face as he heads towards the track and you go back to hospitality.
The two McLaren drivers stood side by side on the flatbed of the moving truck, smiles on their faces as they waved at the fans in the grandstands. âNever seen two friends like you and Y/N go on a trip togetherâ alone.â Oscarâs voice is low, thereâs an interview going on to his left, but heâs loud enough that Lando can hear him.
Lando keeps looking straight forward as he speaks. âDonât know what you mean by that.â
âI think you fully know what I mean.â
Max, who was on the other side of Lando, had been eavesdropping the whole time, and couldnât help but put his two cents in. âIf youâre talking about what I think youâre talking about. I just want to say, do us all a favor and finally tell her how you feel.â
Lando shook his head at the two drivers. You two were just very close best friends, there wasnât anything he needed to admit to you. It was just a trip that two best friends were going on and there was nothing more to itâ right?
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A week and a half later your plane touches down in Naples and even though the flight from London is only around three hours you want nothing more than to just get to the hotel and relax.
The Uber ride from the airport to the hotel thankfully doesnât take long and you have no issue with sitting down in the lobby of the hotel with all the luggage while Lando checks you two in. You do notice that itâs taking quite a long time for Lando to check in and as you glance up from your phone towards the reception desk you see him talking with the worker and showing her something on his phone. Then with a sigh and a shake of his head he turns on his heel back towards you.
âEverything alright?â You ask.
He slips his phone back into his pocket and grabs his suitcase. âI booked us a two bedroom suite and they told me that all they have available is a one bedroom. Even though I showed them the booking on my phone, someone is already in it. So, Iâll just take the couch and you can have the bed.â
This place was fancy, and Lando had undoubtedly paid a pretty penny for the two nights that you were staying here. You would have thought they would have comped the room or something for their mistake. But by the displeased look on his face it didnât seem they offered him anything but a sorry for the inconvenience.
Even with the hotel screwing up the room, the one you end up with is amazing and as you enter the room your jaw drops slightly at it. You set your bags down and explore the room further, taking in all the beautiful artwork on the walls and the natural light streaming in through the floor to ceiling windows. You enter a door to your left and itâs the bedroom, which is even better than the main room, mainly because of the huge balcony that overlooks the sea.
Thereâs a gentle breeze in the air as you lean against the railing, taking in the view and the hustle and bustle from the surrounding area.
âBeautiful isnât it?â Landoâs voice makes you jump, you were so lost in your own little world you didnât even hear him come out onto the balcony. You nod your head in agreement as he slots himself beside you, mimicking your actions of leaning on the railing. âAnd itâs not even the best part of our trip.â
âYou know you didnât have to get such a nice room, we are only in Naples for two days.â As much as you try not to feel guilty about him paying for all of this, you do.
âAnd what did I say a couple weeks ago?â
A groan emits from you as you remember his words to you in Monaco. âYou said to let you spoil me.â
âExactly. I just want you to enjoy yourself and stop worrying about how much everything costs. We are here to relax and have fun, which means figuring out what we want to do tonight.â
You ponder your endless options and all you really want to do is sit on this balcony and enjoy the view, but your stomach growling tells you maybe dinner would be a good idea first. âWe are in Italyâ how about getting some pizza and then just come back here and relax?â Lando agrees and while youâre freshening up he looks up good pizza places within walking distance.
You two are just about ready to leave when there's a knock on the door, followed by room service!
A confused look is shared between you two, but when Lando looks through the peephole there stands a worker with a room service cart. He opens the door and is greeted with a smile from the employee.
âFrom the hotel as an apology about the room.â The employee hands Lando an ice bucket with a bottle of champagne nestled in it. âHave a nice rest of your stay.â
Lando looks back at you with an amused look on his face as the guy quickly leaves, the wheels of the cart squeaking as he hurries down the hall. âWell, we have something to drink on the balcony later.â Lando states as he sets the bucket down on the coffee table.
âChampagne and pizza? No thanks.â You see thereâs a card attached to the bottle and as you open the envelope and read the words written, your cheeks turn scarlet.
âWhat does it say?â Lando questions, moving to stand behind you so he can read it too. His eyes scan the letter and he soon finds himself in the same state as you. He clears his throat as he steps back, suddenly feeling too close to you at the moment.
to the happy couple,
we are so deeply sorry about the mix up with rooms and we hope you can accept our apologies. weâve sent a bottle of the finest champagne that you can get in naples and have comped any room service you may order during your stay. as always if you need anything please donât hesitate to call the front desk and once again we sincerely apologize for our mistake. we hope you enjoy your stay here and the city of naples.
The letter isnât spoken about, actually what you two were addressed as isnât spoken about, but you both agree that their actions were nice. The walk to the pizza place is quiet, the both of you occasionally pointing out things that you think are interesting or pretty, but both of your minds are preoccupied with being mistaken for a couple. Anyone else would have laughed it off, but clearly not the two of you.
By the time youâre back at the hotel and sat on the balcony with the pizza and champagne your conversation had returned to normal. You teasing Lando about not even drinking the glass he had poured for himself and him complaining about you insisting that you get a pizza that has peppers on it.
âYou know what would make this evening even better?â The pizza is long gone and the two of you are sat admiring the painting in the sky left behind from the sun.
âSome pink moscato?â Thereâs a grin on his face as he says it. If thereâs one thing he knows you love, itâs a glass of pink moscato on a balcony with a view.
You try to hide the smile on your face as you glance over at him, but heâs caught you. âYou know me too well Norris.â
âShouldâve told that employee that we wanted a ten dollar bottle of wine instead of that champagne.â Lando jokes.
âThought you didnât like it? That it was too sweet?â
He shuffles slightly in his seat, fully knowing that youâd caught on to his facade. âI may have grown to love it.â He admits quietly.
Youâd known for a while, but hearing him say it was much more satisfying. âYeah. Kinda figured it out last year when you started drinking more of it than me.â
Nighttime draws near and once you start yawning, so does Lando, and after the fourth round of yawning Lando states that itâs time for bed. The subject the two of you hadnât discussed any further than what was said in the lobby earlier. The guilt started to eat at you as you brushed your teeth, heâd invited you and is paying for everything and he doesnât even get to sleep in a bed? What kind of friend were you?
Lando was making the couch up as you walked out of the bathroom and for this being a luxury hotel that couch looked stiff and seemed to be more for show than actual comfort. He already had a bad back and it looked like sleeping on that couch was going to have him trying to find a chiropractor tomorrow instead of sightseeing. âLan. You take the bed and Iâll sleep on the couch.â
He doesnât even look back at you, still occupied with trying to make the couch somewhat comfortable. âNo. Iâll be fine. You take the bed.â
âLando.â
âY/N.â
âLando, look at me.â You knew he wasnât going to budge with the whole couch thing, so you thought of the next best thing. The two of you sharing the bed. It was plenty big and truly it shouldnât be that big of a deal if you two shared it. You were grown adults and bestfriends, no one should have to sleep on the couch.
His focus tears away from the couch and over to you, whoâs already in bed and under the covers. âLook at how big this bed is.â Your body extends over to the other side trying to show him just how big the bed is. âJust sleep in the bed with me, there is plenty of room.â
Your offer takes him by surprise and he stills for a moment, heâd love nothing more than to climb into that bed right now, but a part of his brain is telling him not to. And heâs about ready to tell you no once again until he makes eye contact with you. Those damn eyes of yours could be used in interrogation rooms across the world, one look into them and heâs crumbling like a poorly built sandcastle. The gentle pat on the empty side of the bed is what flattens the sandcastle and heâs mumbling out an okay before sliding under the sheets next to you.
The two of you donât know what to do for a moment, both still and flat on your backs under the sheets, like if you moved an inch the gremlin under the bed was going to get you. But eventually Lando turns on his side, mumbling out a goodnight as he pulls the comforter closer to him. You take his actions as a sign for you to roll over too and you figured that falling asleep wouldnât be an issue after all the yawning earlier, but you were wrong. You tried counting sheep, tried laying on your back, tried anything you could think of to fall asleep and nothing worked. It wasnât like there was a major time difference between here and London, it was literally only an hour, so unfortunately jet lag could not be to blame.
Lando hadnât moved the whole time and you figured he fell asleep as soon as he turned over, but you were bored and going a little crazy because even though you were tired, you couldnât fall asleep. âLando.â You whispered, but got no response. âLando. Are you awake?â You whisper a little louder this time, but still no response. So with a defeated sigh you roll back over and shut your eyes, praying that this time you can go to sleep. But within a matter of seconds you feel the bed shift and Landoâs voice echoing through the room.
âIâm awake.â
You roll back overâ the two of you now facing each other. âWhy didnât you answer me a minute ago?â
âI was trying to go to sleep myself.â
âOh sorry. Iâll go out to the other room and watch some TV or something.â You barely move an inch before Landoâs got his fingers wrapped around your forearm, gently pulling you back towards him.
âNo, don't leave.â
You can feel your heartbeat quickening as you realize just how close the two of you are. The glow from the moon cascades through the balcony doors allowing you to make out the moles on his face and those pretty long eyelashes of his that make his already breathtaking eyes seem even more beautiful. Sometimes you think he has stars in his eyes from the way that they sparkle. And as the two of you lay here right now, you realize the only reason that the moonlight is flooding into the room is because sheâs looking for her lost stars that have found a home in Landoâs eyes.
âYou got any ideas on how to fall asleep? Iâve tried just about everything in the book.â For some reason you're whispering and you wonder if itâs from how close you are to Landoâs face or how suddenly nervous you are to be this close to Lando.
Heâs silent for a moment, the logical and sane part of him screaming at him to not even suggest what heâs been thinking about ever since climbing under these sheets. The mere idea of it being the thing that had prevented him from being fast asleep by now. But heâs got you at literal fingertips length and he thinks there may not be another opportunity like this again. Soâ he acts with his heart and not his brain.
âCome here.â Heâs moved onto his back with his arm outstretched towards you.
âHuh?â You know exactly what heâs insinuating, but you canât actually believe that he is.
âYou wanted an idea on how to fall asleep and this is my idea. Iâll get you to fall asleep in no time.
âYou think us cuddling is gonna get me to fall asleep?â You definitely hadnât wondered what it would be like to be wrapped up in Landoâs arms before. How it would feel to have his fingertips trance mindless patterns across your skin or have your head on his chest. He was your best friend, which meant those thoughts had never crossed your mindâ right?
He shrugs, trying to hide the nervousness in his demeanor, the mere thought of you denying him right now was enough to have him on the next flight back to Monaco in the morning. He should have never put himself in this situation, but god as soon as he climbed into this bed all he wanted to do was have you wrapped up in his arms.
It had consumed his brain, and then consumed it even more because why was he having this desire to have such a tender moment with his best friend? Though his brain stops spiraling when he feels the bed shift and youâre suddenly tucking yourself into his side, arm slung over his torso, and your head laying on his chest. The same chest that his heart is about ready to beat out of and he prays you canât hear how hard itâs working.
But as you both get settled and Landoâs heartbeat finally mellows out he realizes just how right this feels, like the two of you were matching puzzle pieces. Any other girl he had cuddled with before now seemed to feel wrong because as far as he was concerned, nothing felt better than this. It felt natural and easy and he found himself drawing absent minded patterns on your side where your shirt had bunched up.
Heâd spend the rest of his life here in this moment with you if he could. And when he hears your slight snores something short circuits in his brain and heâs pressing a kiss to the top of your head mumbling out goodnight before heâs out like a light too. The moonlight blanketing over the two of you, who right now look more like lovers than best friends.
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The next morning youâre already up and ready for the day by the time Lando wakes up and he tries to hide the disappointment of not waking up next to you, already missing the feeling of having you so close. A feeling though nice, he knew it was one that he probably shouldnât be feeling. He asks you if you slept well while heâs getting ready and you tell him yes, not going into very much detail, for your own sake and his.
The day is full of sightseeing and lots of walking, which is something that Lando likes to complain about. You visit Pompeii and a handful of other places for you and Lando to nerd out about and truly be tourists. You eat amazing food that Lando says his trainer will hate him for, but he justifies it with the excuse of being on vacation. Hundreds of pictures were taken, your phones already begging for more storage and it was only the first day of the trip. Lando even went as far as bringing an actual camera, stating that lando.jpg would be revived soon.
But in between the sightseeing, eating, and everything elseâ both of your brains immediately go back to the sleeping arrangements from last night. You both canât stop thinking about it, but no one brings it up, almost like itâs something you should be ashamed of. No one wants to admit how right it felt to be in eachothers arms last night or how both of you probably had the best sleep of your lives.
You didnât want to admit that when you woke up this morning to Lando spooning you, your stomach was doing flips over the realization that you had moved in the middle of the night and he had found his way back to you. So many thoughts and emotions running through your brains, yet you both think itâs better to just act like it's not a big deal.
Night falls once again and Lando crawls into bed next to you. Youâre both absolutely spent after the eventful day youâve had and Lando worries that you wonât need him to fall asleep, but his worries soon dissipate because youâre tucking yourself into his side as soon as heâs gotten himself comfortable. Youâre like a moth to a flameâ the consequences of these actions never even enter your mind as slowly feel yourself drifting off to sleep.
And when morning comes you donât run away when you feel Landoâs arms around you, even with the butterflies making an appearance again. You enjoy your moment alone, the sun shining in through the windows, the sound of the city already alive, and the way Lando looks as he sleeps. It's truly a beautiful morning.
He wakes up not too long after you and thereâs a funny feeling in his chest when he realizes that heâs gotten to wake up with you still in his arms. That you were the first thing he saw when he opened his eyes. It all just feels so natural and right, that once again no words are spoken about this very non-platonic thing that is happening between you two.
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âWeâve got a little bit a drive ahead of us today.â Lando states as he comes out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel. Water droplets are scattered across his tan skin, his damp curls falling slightly onto his forehead. Youâre trying not to stare, but good lord how could anyone not.
âItâs only like an hour.â You're still sitting in bed, propped up against the headboard as you now watch him rummage through his suitcase.
He holds up a shirt and shorts, silently asking for your opinion. You give him a nod of approval and he heads back to the bathroom to get dressed, but he leaves the door slightly cracked so he can still talk to you. âYeah it was an hour. Iâve canceled the driver and made some new plans for today.â
âNew plans?â You raise your voice slightly so he can hear you.
âItâs a surprise.â He peeks his head around the slightly open doorâ a mischievous smile painted across his face, before disappearing behind it once more. âSo you had better start getting ready.â He commands as the door fully opens, revealing a fully dressed Lando.
A few short moments later a domestic scene plays out in the bathroom mirror. The double sinks both occupied, various hair products, makeup, and other random items are scattered across the counter. Youâre watching Lando through the mirror as he tries to wrangle the mop of curls on his head, but everytime you look away heâs watching you brush your teeth or do your skincare. And the occasional times your eyes do meet in the mirror youâre both like little kids, eyes immediately darting away with smiles on your faces and little giggles echoing through the bathroom.
âYou gonna tell me what the surprise is?â Patience had never been your strong suit and thus knowing about surprises was like a form of torture to you.
âIf I told you it wouldnât be a surprise now would it?â Heâs still screwing with his hair, but heâs looking at you through the mirror.
âOh come on, just tell me. Pretty pretty please?â Youâve come up behind him, your chin resting on his shoulder as you flash your best puppy dog eyes at him through the mirror. And for a split second Lando almost cracksâ those puppy dog eyes working on him better than you would have ever thought.
âThe faster we pack everything up, the faster you get the surprise.â Heâs shocked his words come out smoothly, his brain still foggy from your pretty eyes and close contact.
Ten minutes later youâre walking out of the elevator and into the hotel lobby, where Lando tells you to wait while he goes outside for a moment. You assume the surprise is outside and so you try to peek and see whatâs out there, but heâs coming back in before you can get a good look.
âAlright letâs go.â
You donât see anything that you would consider surprise worthy as you walk out the doors, but then Lando leads you towards the cars parked outside the hotel and stops in front of a vintage yellow Ferrari. Your eyes dart back and forth between Lando and the car, unsure if he was just stopping to admire it or if you were going to be riding in it. He answers your unasked question by opening the passenger side door, motioning for you to get in.
âIs this the surprise? Where did you even get this car from?â Your eyes widening over the car itself and the fact that heâd gone through the trouble of even finding the car.
âItâs part of the surprise-â Heâs got a smirk on his face as he speaks âand I have my connections.â He motions once again for you to get into the car and this time you donât oblige. The leather seat soft under your legs as you sit down, the car was surely close to 60 years old, yet still looked brand new.
Lando puts the luggage in the trunk while you're examining all of the carâs little quirks and details while you wait.
âOk, you ready?â Lando asks as he gets in the driver's seat.
âGonna tell me the other part of the surprise?â
He sighs, he wanted you to figure it out on your own, but you were so persistent sometimes. âYou know how youâve always talked about wanting to drive along the coast of Italy?â You nod, a smile already forming on your face as you realize what heâs planned for you. âWell, instead of just taking the straight shot over, weâre gonna take the long way all along the Amalfi coast. And I figured it was only fitting that we do it in a Ferrari, considering we are in Italy after all.â
You canât wipe the smile off your face as you stare at Lando from the passenger seat. Sometimes you wondered if he was even listening to you when you spoke, but then he pulls stuff like this and you know that heâs always listeningâ remembering things that you care about or like. âGod, I donât deserve you.â
Thankfully the car is still parked because youâre pulling Lando into a bone crushing hug, your cheek smushed up against the side of his head, a giggle emitting from him as he tries to hug you back.
âWhen you told me your work approved the time off, I knew for sure that this was one thing that I wanted to make happen. That same night I was online trying to find a car to rent for the day, but then I saw this one for saleâŚâ His words trail off and your jaw drops at the realization, but in all reality you know itâs a very Lando thing to do.
âAnd now weâre sitting in your newest baby?â
Heâs got a sheepish look on his face as he speaks. âAs soon as I saw it I knew it was the perfect car for this. Plus itâs the ultimate vacation souvenir!â
âYouâre crazy.â He actually couldnât be more perfect.
âYeah, but you love me.â He teases as he starts the engine.
âUnfortunately.â
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The long winding road along the coast provided scenery that was beyond your wildest dreams. It was serene and picturesqueâ like something straight out of a movie. The bright blue water on one side of the road and the white stone mountains on the other. The various tunnels that somehow had even more breathtaking views on the other side of them. The handful of towns that you had to drive through, each of them more charming than the last, you only wished you had enough time to stay a week in all of them.
As simple as this was, you would have been more than content with this trip if you went home tomorrow, not that you wanted to, it was just that sometimes the simple things in life meant more than anything lavish to you. You werenât hard to please, all you needed was Lando singing along to some song on the radio, beautiful scenery, and the wind blowing in your hair for you to be the happiest girl in the world right now.
The whole trip your attention was divided between the coastal beauty and the beauty in the driver's seat. You couldnât help but glance over ever so often at Lando, especially when youâd hear him start to sing along to a song. He just looked so ethereal sitting next to you, one hand on the steering wheelâ the other resting between you two.
There was a moment where you felt the sudden urge to reach out and intertwine your fingers with his, a moment of insanity youâd thought. It surely had nothing to do with how sunkissed he looked from only being in the sun one day, or how the wind had made his curls the perfect amount of messy, or how youâd catch him looking over at you with a smile on his face.
If only you knew that Lando had been fighting the urge to reach out and grab your hand too. Heâd never seen you so ecstatic over something as simple as going for a drive, but heâd drive this car till he ran out of road or gas, whichever came first, just to see that smile of yours. The way your eyes sparkled in the sunlight and how you giggled at his singing was just an added bonus, but all of them made his chest feel funny. Heâd been around the world more times than he could count, seen so many breathtaking places, but right now none of those places compared to the beauty that was sitting next to him in this car.
Youâre in your own little world so much that you donât even realize youâve made it to your destination until Landoâs putting the car in park in front of a very luxurious looking villa. âWeâve arrived.â Lando states in a sing-song voice.
âIs this when you tell me Max and everyone else are actually coming too?â You question, flabbergasted over the size of the house. And you can tell what heâs thinking just by his facial expression. âLando this place is huge just for the two of us.â
He rolls his eyes before getting out of the car to get luggage. âItâs actually a lot smaller than you think.â
When you step foot into the two story villa it immediately has that Mediterranean coast charm with intricate tile floors, artwork that adorns the walls, and windows with the most gorgeous viewsâ needles to say youâre in love.
Then you take in just how big the place is with itâs one too many bedrooms and bathrooms and various other rooms that you probably wonât even use. Landoâs words echo in your head as you explore the house some more, and thereâs nothing small about this place at all. âYouâre such a liar Lan.â Your words are playful as you walk through one of the many french doors in the house that leads out to the back.
âLie? I would nev-â
âOh my god!â Heâs cut off by you realizing that the backyard of this villa is nothing shy of paradise. A massive pergola covered part of the back of the house with vibrant bougainvillea lining the top and hanging down the sides. Various other flowers and plants are scattered strategically around the area. Under the pergola there's an outdoor kitchen and a large glass dining table, clearly meant to host a group of people, not two. Further out thereâs a pool with sunbeds lined down one side of itâ a poolside bar on the other.
All of these things are great, but the real show stopper is the view that this place has. From the front of the house you canât really tell just how close you are to the water, but from out back itâs a completely different view. Thereâs a separate sitting area slightly further out from the pool. Itâs got a little pergola of its own with couches and chairs and one of those fancy rock fire pits and that is where you get the best view.
Itâs like something out of a nature documentaryâ itâs so perfect that it almost seems fake. The sea is so close that you can hear the waves crashing against the rocks and itâs just endless bright blue water for days. You thought the view in Naples was pretty, but this was breathtaking.
âKnew youâd love this place.â Lando states as he comes up beside you, acting like he hadnât been lingering behind you the whole time, admiring the view (you) from afar.
It was true though, Lando knew as soon as he saw this place online that it was the one. It didnât matter that he paid an astronomical amount for it or that the house was way too big for just the two of you. All it took was for him to see the view to know youâd be the happiest girl in the world here.
He could picture you two sitting out here in the evening, watching the sun set over the coast, undoubtedly with a bottle of pink moscato. Youâd end up drinking one too many glasses and your cheeks would get red and youâd get the giggles.
As Lando stood hereâ eyes never leaving the beautiful scene in front of him. He canât help but feel that funny feeling in his chest over how radiant and happy you look. And he thinks that if this house was for sale heâd buy it in a heartbeat, if that meant he got to see you like this all the time.
A smile finds its way onto your face as you glance over at the guy you call your best friend. âYou werenât lying when you said you were gonna spoil me, huh?â You gently nudge him with your elbow, your smile growing even bigger at his response.
âOnly the best for my favorite person.â His smile is equally as big as you lean your head on his shoulder and in that moment he thinks that maybe the reserve driver could just finish out the season and he could just stay here with you.
That night as you both head to your rooms thereâs an obvious tension in the air. Youâre both slowly making your ascent up the stairs and lingering in the hall, trying to milk every last second until you inevitably have to go into your separate rooms.
After so long though, youâre the first to cave as your hand reaches for the doorknob. Your door creaks open and youâre mumbling out goodnight lan, iâll see you in the morning before entering the room. Although you donât close the door behind you and Lando takes that as an invitation to linger in your doorway. He doesnât need to speak for you to know heâs there, you can feel his presence, and subconsciously youâve left that door open for him.
âGoodnight Y/N.â Youâve got your back turned to him as you're digging through your suitcase for pajamas, but you can hear the slight grin he has on his face as he speaks.
The sight of Lando as you turn around has butterflies erupting in your stomach and it makes you feel weird to be feeling those things about your best friend. Heâs leaned up against the door frame with his arms crossed over his chest and that grin that youâd sensed him having was still on his face as he looked at you. Your eyes scanned over him, focusing on little details like his hair still being wind tousled and how the tops of his cheeks were slightly burnt from the car ride today.
And for someone who claimed to not need a ton of sleepâ he looked so sleepy as the two of you locked eyes. Those big blue eyes slowly blinking and drooping ever so slightly as his head now too rested against the door frame. He still donned the hoodie that you teased him about putting on earlier after his claims of it being chilly once the sun set, only adding to the sleepy look he had going on right now.
Someone had never looked so cozy and you wanted nothing more than to be wrapped up in his arms, but that wasnât going to happen tonight. You will tell him goodnight again and heâll close the door behind him before shuffling over to his room. Your mind will be preoccupied with him as you get ready for bed, the image of him in your doorway forever burned into your mind as you brush your teeth. As you crawl into bed you wonât think about how cold the sheets feel or how you want to be cuddled up to your best friend. You wonât think about how itâs been two hours that youâve laid here and sleep has yet to greet you. And you certainly wonât think about how youâd be fast asleep right now if Lando was beside you.
But unfortunately you do think about all those things and youâve exhausted every resource to try and distract you from it. It was different at the hotel when there was only one bed, but now with multiple bedrooms to choose from there was no reason for the two of you to sleep in the same bed. Lines were already blurring between you two without either of you knowing it and if you chose to go seek solace with Lando then those lines would blur even more.
But you didnât know that your actions would eventually have consequences and seconds later youâre throwing the covers off of you with only one destination in mindâ Landoâs room. The journey though, is short lived because as soon as you open your door youâre met with a wide eyed Lando, his fist frozen in the air like he was getting ready to knock on your door.
The frozen fist moves to rubbing the back of his neck as he speaks to you. âSorry, was coming to see if you were still awake.â
âI was coming to see if you were up too.â Heâs still got that hoodie on from earlier, but you noticed heâd changed out his shorts for boxers. His hair was even more messy and youâd wondered if he had even fallen asleep yet. âCouldnât sleep either?â
Lando shrugs. âNot reallyâ kept tossing and turning.â He acts like the reason he canât go to sleep isnât right in front of him as he rests his head on the familiar door frame.
âYeah I can tell by your hair.â You tease. He just gives you a half assed smile and when he doesnât tease you back thatâs when you realize just how tired he is. âYou want to watch some TV or something? â
He shakes his head no. The only thing he wants to do is go to sleep, but how can he when youâre not next to him? It was embarrassing to admit that only after two nights of sharing the same bed that he couldnât sleep on his own, but here he was. His big bed felt too empty and he realized that even if he slept in a twin sized bed it would still feel empty without you next to him.
Not to mention heâd found comfort in you being his personal heater at night. It was no secret that Lando ran cold, often seen sporting a jacket during race weekends while his teammate was in shorts. So with his personal heater gone, heâd resorted to wearing a hoodie to bed, which didnât come close to holding a candle to you.
When he finally worked up the courage to get up and go to your room he was pleasantly surprised to find you up too and facing the same problem as him. A little sliver of him hoping that it was the exact same problem and that you couldnât sleep without him.
For a split second you caught his eyes looking past you and towards your bed. He couldnât have made it any more obvious, but if was actually hinting at what you thought he was hinting at, then you werenât going to pass up on the opportunity. It wasnât a coincidence that he had come to your door and that you both had trouble sleeping in separate beds. So, you act on impulse and tell him come on just sleep in here tonight and like a little kid whoâs gotten scared of the thunder at night heâs crawling into your bed in an instant.
Itâs like you two are magnetsâ immediately finding your way to each other under the sheets and it doesnât take long for the both of you to finally fall asleep. And some time in the middle of the night Lando had shed his hoodie, no longer needing it with you pressed against him. When you two wake in the morning with the sun streaming through the windows and sleepy smiles plastered on your faces, thereâs an unspoken agreement that even with the plethora of beds in this house, you two would be sleeping in the same one every night.
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Lando and you were best friends, nothing more. Nevermind the sharing a bed every night or the longing glances or the sometimes suggestive thoughts you had about him. So maybe your friendship wasnât practical or normal, but there was nothing romantic going on between you two. It was something you had drilled into your head for some time now. Youâd try to ignore the way your heart would speed up when youâd catch him looking at you or the way he always has to have physical contact with you. And any other crazy thoughts that youâd speculated about had always been pushed aside rather quickly. He was your best friend after all and once again nothing more.
Though over the course of the week youâd found yourself having a hard time in pushing aside those non platonic thoughts about Lando. There were instances you two had found yourselves in that you just couldnât ignore.
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âWhatâs the plan for today?â You ask as the two of you are sitting outside the cutest little restaurant, enjoying brunch.
Lando finishes the last little bit of his eggs before answering you. âWell nothing that involves you getting behind a motor vehicle with the way youâve been downing those bellinis.â You roll your eyes at his dramatics. Yes, youâd had your fair share of bellinis, but they were so damn good and there really wasnât that much alcohol in them for it to be an issue. âHow about we just see where the day takes us?â
âWell I already had the idea of renting jet skis in my head, but I guess weâll do what you suggested.â You joke.
Now Landoâs the one to roll his eyes at you as he flags down the waiter for the check. He doesnât even look at it when itâs brought over, he just hands his card over like itâs nothing. Itâs something that you still arenât used to him doing even after knowing him for so long and youâre sure heâs gotten ripped off more times than he could imagine.
He quickly signs for it once the waiter comes back and with his card back in his wallet youâre free to go. Except when you stand up all those bellinis hit you and youâre a little unsteady on your feet, something that Lando clocks immediately. You arenât drunk, just buzzed, but Lando isnât going to let you live this down. âYou wanted to rent jet skis huh?â He teases as he wraps an arm around your waist to steady you.
âThink we still could to be honest.â Youâre confident in your ability to walk on your own, but Lando insists on keeping his hold on you.
âWell I donât want to waste a day at the hospital, so letâs just look around at the shops.â
Youâd passed them on your way to brunch and Lando had promised youâd come back to them. They were cute little stores, each one specializing in certain things. You took your time in each one, feeling the silky material of some of the dresses, admiring the leather detailing on the handbags, and gawking at the dazzling jewelry in the displays. Everything was quite luxurious and your eyes couldnât help but linger on a certain bag and bracelet, but the price tags were all you had to see to know they werenât coming home with you.
Lando had been watching you the whole time, fully prepared to be your bag boy and was ready to pull out his wallet whenever heâd see you pick something up. But much to his disappointment, all you did was look and after going through all the stores you left empty handed. âYou didnât see anything you wanted?â Lando asks as you continue down the street.
You simply shrug your shoulders at him. âNothing that I couldnât live without.â He doesnât press the matter anymore, fully knowing that heâd be coming back sometime this week to get you that bag and bracelet that you kept circling back to.
The streets are charming and bright. Itâs a place that you canât help but feel alive in, especially as the summer sun beats down on you, but the light breeze coming in off the sea makes it bearable. Your buzz was long gone, but Lando still insisted that you link your arm with his as you stroll down the streetsâ just in case. You donât oblige to his request, enjoying the feeling of holding onto his solid bicep as the sound of him slightly humming the song that was playing at brunch fills your ears.
A sense of peacefulness washes over you and itâs at this moment that you donât feel like youâre on the arm of the famous Formula 1 driver Lando Norris. He doesnât have a million cameras on him or people flocking to him for an autograph. Itâs just you and your best friend Landoâ the boy who was gagging when you teased the idea of ordering fish at dinner last night or who you laid in bed with this morning, watching dumb Tiktoks until you were both in tears laughing. It was nice for once, to just have Lando.
Youâre just about ready to circle back to the villa when you hear a woman shouting in Italian from down the street. Youâre not anywhere near fluent, but you recognize some basic words and what youâve heard has you pulling Lando towards the voice.
Fior! Bei Fiori!
At the end of the street there stood the lady, who had a cart of the most vibrant fresh flowers. When she spotted the two of you approaching, a smile painted itself across her face. âI think your pretty girl deserves some flowers, donât you?â
The corners of your mouth turn upwards and a smile is painted across your face. You can feel your cheeks getting warm at her statement, at the implication that you were Landoâs, but itâs his response that makes them comparable to the roses found on the cart.
Lando feels his chest get tight over the lady assuming the two of you were together. Itâs nothing new, for people to assume that heâs with a girl just because heâs seen with one. Though for some reason when someone says it about you, it gets a reaction out of him. Heâs grinning as he looks at you and then back to the sweet old lady. âYouâre right, my pretty girl does deserve some flowers.â
The butterflies that erupted in your stomach at his words were embarrassing and not the appropriate reaction to be having over your best friend, but his comment wasnât very platonic either. Youâre blushing and grinning, probably very easily comparable to a school girl at the moment. Heâs got a smug look on his face as he hands you of course the biggest bouquet the lady had. Itâs truly a beautiful bouquet and it smells divine, it had anything you could have gotten at the shops beaten by a mile.
As you head back towards the villa you canât wipe the smile off your face and you canât stop thinking about my pretty girl. The words shamelessly repeating over and over again in your head. âSo you think Iâm pretty huh?â You tease.
Now Landoâs the one to blush and he hopes you just think itâs just from the heat and sun as you look at him. âOf course I do. Iâd have to be blind to not think so.â Heâs sincere with his words, he truly thinks youâre one of the most breathtaking women heâs ever metâ intellectually and physically.
You lean your head on his arm, the same one youâve still wrapped yourself around. âYou sure know how to swoon 'em.â
âYouâre my best friend. I wouldnât lie to you.â
And for the first time, for both of you, it feels weird and almost stings to hear the word best friend said out loud. Because deep down you know youâre way more than that.
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Although you werenât that much of a party girl you didnât mind going out every once in a while. So when Lando suggested going out to one of the bars tonight it didnât seem like a bad idea. Youâd done your fair share of relaxing and to you that meant a night out deserved to be had.
With a final spritz of your perfume youâre ready to go and as you looked in the mirror one last time you couldnât help but think damn, I look good. You found Lando waiting for you in the foyer, his head lifting up from his phone at the sound of your heels clicking down the stairs. âMight want to close your mouth before you attract flies Lan.â He hadnât even realized he was in that much of a trance until you said something, he could feel his cheeks getting warm at getting caught.
You hook your arm with his as he leads you out the front door. âSorry, you just look unreal tonight.â
âWell you donât look too bad yourself.â Heâd chosen his tried and true white button up, leaving the first few buttons undone, which revealed even more of his gorgeous tanned skin. How someone could make something as simple as a white button up shirt look so good was beyond you, but it was clearly something he was skilled at.
The bar you end up at is relatively small and you realize it must be the most popular one with how packed it is. Itâs on the coast and thereâs a gorgeous outdoor area that you are immediately drawn to, mainly because thereâs slightly less people out here. Itâs still a good time though and the people are somehow even more rowdy out here and you wonder if itâs the fresh air.
Youâve danced, drank, laughed, talked, everything you could think of on a night out. It's been nice, especially doing it all with Lando, who somehow through the course of the night has undone more buttons on his shirt and you think he might as well just undo them all. Itâs clearly getting late from how the crowd is slowly starting to thin out, but you two are still having a ball, and you figure youâll stay till they kick you out.
Landoâs gone inside to get you both another drink, which he easily could have gotten from the bartender out here, but he claimed that the guy didnât know what he was doing. While you wait you venture off to a far corner of the patio thatâs somewhat empty. Thereâs a couple people sitting in chairs sharing a cigarette, but other than that youâre alone. Even in the dark the view is amazing and as you lean on the railing a nice breeze comes in off the water. Itâs relaxing and nice, especially when youâre that sticky kind of sweaty and a little more drunk than you realize.
âAbsolutely beautiful.â You jump at the unfamiliar, yet familiar voice. It had been a minute since youâd heard another British accent besides Landoâs. When you turn around to put a face to the voice you arenât expecting to see such a gorgeous man standing there. Heâs really the whole packageâ stunning blue eyes, pretty smile, fluffy light brown hair, nice facial hair.
âUh- yeah it is.â You assumed he was talking about the view.
âCan I join you?â
Heâs cute and you wouldnât mind some company, so you tell him yes.
âWhereâd your boyfriend run off to?â He asks as he nurses his Corona.
âHeâs not my boyfriend, but Iâm not wrong in assuming you know who he is, right?â This guy is in his twenties and British, if he didnât know who Lando was then he had to be living under a rock.
He takes a swig of his beer before responding. âI know who he is.â
You scoff, there was a big possibility that he was using you to get to meet Lando, it was something youâd dealt with many times before. Guys showing interest in you only in hopes of becoming Landoâs friend or even worse girls who would befriend you only to try and get with Lando. You werenât some step on the ladder that led to Lando, you were your own person with feelings and a life, who deserved to have people like you for you, not who you knew.
Maybe itâs the alcohol or maybe itâs the fact that youâre done being led on by people, but either way you confront the guy about it. âAre you using me to get to him?â
You hear him laugh a little and it lights a fire in you, but his words extinguish it before it gets out of control. âI was brave enough to come over here and willingly flirt with you before I even knew if he was your boyfriend or not. If I was trying to use you to get to him, I donât think that would be a good plan. Which now that I know youâre not his girlfriend, kinda makes me think heâs an idiot. How could he have a girl like you in his life and not be madly in love with you?â
Your brain is fuzzy as youâre trying to process what heâs said. âSorry wait- you were flirting with me?â
Heâs got a cheeky grin on his face and he lets out a chuckle at your cluelessness. âWhen I said âabsolutely beautifulâ I wasnât talking about the view.â
âOh.â Youâd thought it was kind of weird for him to just randomly say that about the view, but for it to be aimed towards you was the last thing you had thought of. âWell, flirt all you want then.â
Not only did this place have one bartender that was incompetent, it seemed like all of them were. Lando had waited for what seemed like ages for a beer and a vodka cranberry. It wasnât even that busy at the bar for it to be taking so long and at one point he contemplated just going behind the bar and doing it himself. By the time he finally got them he was surprised you hadnât come looking for him, but when he made his way out onto the patio he saw exactly why you hadnât.
Over in the corner Lando sees you doubled over laughing with some guy as he watches from afar. His grip on the glasses gets tighter as he sees you place your hand on the guy's arm. The tightness in his chest increases the longer he stands here and watches. It bothers him more than he cares to admitâ to see you with some random guy. To hear that laugh of yours and him not being the source of it is driving him crazy. But what really sends him over the edge is when the guy tucks a stray strand of hair behind your ear and without a second thought heâs storming over there.
Lando tries to play it cool as he approaches and heâs glad heâs got these drinks to use as an excuse. Your mid conversation when Lando interrupts, but he doesnât care one bit. âHereâs your drink.â He says as he pushes the slightly watered down glass towards you.
âOh thanks Lan.â You flash him a smile, but his face is emotionless and the fun light hearted atmosphere has suddenly turned awkward. For some reason you feel like youâve been caught doing something you shouldnât have. âUm, Lando this is-â You remember at that moment that you hadnât even asked the guy his name, which to you makes this even more awkward.
âHarry.â
âRight. Lando, this is Harry.â You motion between the two men. âHarry, this is Lando.â
Harry extends a hand out to Lando and they very awkwardly shake hands. âNice to meet you mate.â
Lando only nods his head at him before turning his focus back to you. âI think we should get going, they are gonna close soon.â
You think heâs joking, considering heâd waited all that time to get these drinks, and now he suddenly wants to leave. âI just got my drink, can we at least stay until I finish it?â It also feels rude to just abruptly leave in the middle of the conversation that you were enjoying with Harry. But Lando doesnât know how to hide his emotions very well and by the look on his face you know heâs being serious.
âWell you can stay, but Iâm leaving.â He knows he shouldnât leave you alone with some guy you just met, but god he doesnât think he can stand here and watch you flirt with him anymore than he already has. So, without hearing your response he starts making his way towards the exit.
A regretful look washes across your face as you look at Harry. âThat was so rude of him, Iâm so sorry. I donât know whatâs up with him, he never acts like that.â You take a big swig of your drink, fully knowing dealing with Lando is gonna be a pain. âIt was really nice talking to you, but I better go hunt him down.â
He shrugs, clearly not as upset over this whole situation as Lando or you are. âNo biggie, Iâm sure weâll see each other around. Itâs a small place.â You bid him goodbye, but you donât get very far before heâs hollering. âCan I at least get your Instagram?â Which has you coming back and quickly exchanging usernames before you're off again to find Lando.
You run into him in the bar and it looks like he was coming back out towards the patio. A look of relief washes over him when he sees you and heâs leading you away from the loud music and out the front exit before either of you can say anything. Only once the bass of the music is a faint sound in the distance does Lando speak up. âIâm sorry. I shouldnât have left you alone with that guy. I was coming back in when you found me.â
âI appreciate you looking out for me, but you were kinda rude to him for no reason.â
Guess you were diving in head first with this.
Lando stops walking and turns to face you, a confused look on his face. âI wasnât being rude.â
âYes you were. We were having a conversation and you just butted in and demanded we leave. Not to mention you wouldnât even speak to him. He was nice, you would have liked him if you gave him the time of day.â
âYou barely know the guy, you talked to him for what ten-fifteen minutes? I just didnât have a good feeling about him.â
You couldnât help but roll your eyes at his dumb excuse. He shook the guy's hand and didnât get a good feeling about him? Bullshit. âWell if you didnât have a good feeling about him then whyâd you leave me with him?â Heâd started to walk again, but stopped dead in his tracks at your words, spinning on his heel to face you once again.
âI already told you I regretted leaving you. I just had to get out of there for a second.â
âWhy?â You were being adamant, your arms crossed across your chest as you waited for his answer.
He knew exactly why, but he couldnât tell you that, he hadnât even fully accepted it himself. âI donât know Y/N.â
Youâre getting frustrated with him and these damn heels that you chose to wear are not making your mood any better. âThereâs a reason for everything, Lando. How would you like it if I acted like you did tonight with a girl you were talking to? Youâd be livid.â
He completely ignores your accusation and turns the conversation in another direction. It had been itching at him to know if you were just being nice or if you were actually interested in the guy, so he plucked up the courage to ask. âSo you were flirting with him?â
The look on your face is one of pure confusion, but your tone is nothing but shitty. âIâm not sure how you jumped to that conclusion from what I said or why itâs really any of your concern, but yeah it was just some harmless flirting. Iâm sorry for having a little fun!â You were thankful that it was late enough for the street to be relatively empty, the last thing that needed to happen was pictures or a video getting out of you two arguing. You were sure there were already rumors about you two being on vacation together, you could only imagine how this would be misconstrued.
Hearing that his best friend was potentially interested in someone else had his head spinning and he could no longer blame his reactions on the alcohol. He couldnât lie to himself anymore, ignore the way his heart raced when he looked at you. Or how he loved hearing that old lady call you his girl the other day.
It had been building upâ festering almost this whole week and maybe subconsciously he wanted to go on this trip with you to see if there was some truth to what everyone had teased him about. He just didnât think it would actually be true. Or that at two in the morning on a dimly lit street in Italy, during an argument, he would finally accept that he was in love with you.
But even with him realizing heâs in love with you, that doesnât stop him from being an absolute idiot. âHe was probably just using you to get to me.â Lando immediately regrets what he said as soon as it comes out of his mouth. He knows that's a sore subject for you and the look of hurt on your face makes his stomach churn.
âNow youâre just being mean.â Youâre sure itâs a mixture of things that are contributing to the salty tears welling up in your eyes at the moment, but itâs Landoâs comment that actually makes them fall. Youâre storming off before he can say anything, wishing you would have just stayed at the bar with Harry.
Lando knows heâs an idiot, but he also knows heâs the one who lit the match, which means heâs gotta be the one to put it out. âY/N come on. Iâm sorry. I know I shouldnât have said that.â He catches up with you rather quickly, your heels slowing you down.
âJust leave me be Lando.â
âY/N. Stop walking for just a minute.â Heâs grabbing at your arm, trying to halt your movement.
You stop and face him and for what itâs worth he does look sorry, but that doesnât change how you feel. âWhat? You want to poke fun at me some more?â
âNo I-â
âYou know I was just having a little harmless fun with that guy, like you said I talked to him for what? Fifteen minutes? Nothing was going to come out of it. But is it really that far-fetched of an idea for a guy to actually be interested in me just for me? Am I that undesirable and unlovable for it to seem like a reality? Or was he like everyone else whoâs used me and threw me away as soon as they got their five minutes of the almighty Lando Norris experience?â
The tears that slide down your cheeks are a mixture of anger and embarrassment and maybe you were being a little dramatic. Perhaps the multiple drinks youâd consumed werenât helping either, but when the person you care about the most says something like that, something youâd confided in him about, it hurts.
Lando feels his heart break to hear you talk about yourself like that. All he wants to do is to scream out that youâre not undesirable or unlovable. Heâs wanted you and loved you for some time now, the moment it started heâs not sure, but he knows it didnât happen overnight. Itâs always been thereâ he was just too blind to see it.
Heâs not entirely sure on how to make this right, he knows he was an ass, but he also knows he canât take back whatâs been said. The worst part is that he knows exactly how you feel and somehow he still thought that was a good thing to throw in your faceâ all because he was jealous. He could deal with people trying to use him, heâd developed a sixth sense for them and never let it get too far, but you were too kind. Your big heart and trusting of others had gotten you burned one too many times and it hurt Lando even more to know that all that had happened because of him.
âI should have never said that to you. I know first hand how it feels to have people use me and the only reason youâve had to deal with that is because of me. Iâm so fucking sorry.â
Your sniffles fill the night air as you try to calm yourself down. While people used you to get to Lando, at least they didnât want to be your friend to leech off your fame. Use you for your money and generosity, expecting paddock passes and some lavish lifestyle. People saw Lando as an object rather than a person more times than not. While your feelings were valid and Lando was still an ass for saying that, you realized to be in his shoes was worse. So, you wipe away your tears and accept his apology indirectly. âThink weâve only got each other at this point.â
His voice is soft as he approaches you, his hand reaching up to brush a stray piece of hair out of your face. âDonât think I need anyone else but you.â
The tender moment has you turning to putty in his handsâ the argument pushed to the back of your mind. His hand moves to cup your face and his tumb brushes gently across your cheek. You feel like time has frozen in this moment and for a split second you swear he looks at your lips, like heâs going to kiss you. The fact that this is your best friend is no concern to you at the moment. Then the moment between you two is ruined just as fast as it began, the sound of a very loud and drunk group of people leaving the bar up the street brings you both back to reality.
You back away from each other slowly, like you werenât sure exactly what had just almost happened. Youâd already resorted to blaming it on both of your emotions still running wild and the alcohol still coursing through your veins. The group of people are getting closer, their obnoxious singing getting louder as each second passes. They might not even know who Lando is, but you arenât in the mood to wait around and find out, the last thing you want to deal with right now is drunk fans. âWeâve had too much to drink, my head and feet hurt. Letâs go home.â You grumble as you begin the trek home once again, your feet aching more and more with each step.
Lando stops for a moment and kicks off his shoes, he couldnât let you walk in pain the whole way home. Especially after the pain he had caused moments ago. âHere put these on, your feet are killing you.â He hands you the white sneakers before squatting down in front of you to help you get your heels off.
Your feet already thank you as you slip on the oversized shoes that clomp on the stone street. And like a magnet you find yourself wrapping your arm around his as you walk down the street. Youâre sure you two are a sightâyou in shoes that are way too big and Lando only in socks as he holds your heels for you.
âYou know youâre still an ass.â You tell him as you lean your head on his shoulder.
âI know.â
âYou know you arenât unloveable.â He hopes you know heâs being sincere, your words still replaying in his mind as you walk.
âI know.â
By the time you make it back to the villa youâre both exhausted. The alcohol, the argument, that moment between you two, the walk homeâ you were sure tomorrow morning would be a rough one. There arenât many words spoken as you get ready for bed and as you slide under the covers next to Lando you canât shake something from your mind from tonight, and it wasnât the argument.
It was the fact that during the whole time you were chatting with Harry, you couldnât help but compare him to Lando. There wasnât the same sparkle in his eye like Lando, his smile wasnât the same, his laugh. It seemed like everything that you noticed about this guy came second best to Lando. Sure you were having fun and he was nice, but not once had the thought of Lando slipped your mind. And even right now, with Lando next to you, youâre still somehow thinking about him.
It didnât take long for Lando to fall asleep and you were on the verge of it when your phone went off on the nightstand. Usually, you would just ignore it, but something in you told you to see what it was.
harryinsta is now following you
You then see that he had sent you a DM and youâre expecting it to be about meeting up some time, which you were going to politely decline, but itâs quite the opposite.
harryintsa: i must have been mistaken earlier. lando's not an idiot.
yourinsta: huh?
harryinsta: heâs in love with you lol
Your heart nearly beats out of your chest as you read the message over and over again. Lando wasnât in love with you, was he? Sure youâd heard it from just about everyone in your life that you two were in love with each other, but you always thought it was silly. You guys were just best friends is what you would always say, but to hear it come from a literal stranger was different.
You couldnât lie that you hadnât recently had your moments of perhaps thinking that he did, though youâd always talk yourself out of the idea. Although, if he was in love with you that may explain his behavior tonight. Or maybe it was just the alcohol like youâd originally thought. Then the tender moment you two shared entered your mind and suddenly the gears in your head are working overtime.
You locked your phone and sat it back down on the nightstand. Just from a simple DM youâd gone from being dead tired to now being wide awakeâ staring at the ceiling. Youâre not sure how much time had passed as you laid there over analyzing every interaction with Lando. You were struggling enough trying to figure out the things you had recently felt about Lando, let alone the possibility that he was in love with you. All you knew for sure was that things werenât the same between you two, youâd felt a shift when you were with him in Monaco before the Belgium GP. It had only amplified during this trip and you had a feeling that by the end of it things would be different.
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Two days later youâre sunbathing on a comfy lounger on the beach, while Landoâs out in the water doing god knows what. Youâd given up on watching him a while ago, deciding instead to be productive and try to catch up to Landoâs tan level. Which, after laying here for some time now, it seemed impossible. That boy could be in the sun for a day and have a glowing tanâ you not so much.
Moments later you think a cloud has passed in front of the sun, but when you feel cool water droplets on your hot skin you peek open one eye to find a wet and grinning Lando standing over you. âHi.â
âHi.â You greet him back as you sit up, your smile matching his. âDid you have fun out there?â
âI had a lot of fun and the water felt amazing. You should have got in.â
âI will later.â You notice heâs got one of his hands behind his back like heâs hiding something. âLan, what have you got?â He tries to play dumb for a moment, trying to wind you up, but he eventually caves and pulls a plastic pail from behind his back. âPlease donât tell me you stole that from a kid.â Your half joking and half being serious, because where the hell did he get that from?
âI did not steal it from a kidâ I borrowed it.â The smile on his face never falls as he continues to speak. âThey had a bunch of them. I don't think theyâll miss it. Plus I needed something to put your present in.â
You cock an eyebrow at him, curiosity written all over your face. âMy present?â
Heâs smiling so hard as he sits down at the end of the lounger that you think this must be the best present in the world. Seconds later the pail is turned upside down and out falls the prettiest seashells. Your heart swells when you realize all that time he had spent out in the water he was looking for shellsâ for you. Thereâs a light pink one that catches your eye and Lando notices when you reach for it.
âKnew youâd like that one.â
Of course he knew that, sometimes you think he knows you better than you know yourself. âCanât believe you spent all that time finding them.â
He shrugs like itâs an everyday thing. âI knew it would make you happy, which meant I enjoyed doing it. Really only took me so long because I wanted them all to be perfect for you.â
The sun beating down on you feels cold with how hard youâre blushing. âYouâre my favorite person, you know that?â
Lando starts to get shy when you get sappy, like he hadnât just said the sweetest thing a second ago. Heâs smiling, but focuses on carefully putting the shells back into the pail. âYouâre my favorite person too.â
A while later you decide to open up the umbrella between the two loungers. You had chosen to give up on the tanning lifestyle and instead dive into a new book. While Lando was fast asleep on the lounger next to you, apparently all that hunting for shells had worn him out.
Youâd noticed out of the corner of your eye awhile ago that a little boy kept glancing over in your direction, specifically at Lando. You knew he had to have been a fan or he was the kid Lando stole the pail from. The nervous glances back and forth tell you that thankfully heâs a fan and you think itâs the cutest thing. Youâre in the middle of considering waking Lando up so the boy could come over when you hear a groan that is undoubtedly Lando awaking from his slumber.
âWhat are you looking at?â He asks as he rubs his eyes.
You nod your head in the direction of the boy whoâs just seen that Lando is awake and is practically bouncing with glee. âThink you may have a fan.â
A big grin spreads across Landoâs face as he sees the little boy. Lando loved meeting all his fans, but meeting the kids was his favorite. He thinks a big part of the reason he always makes sure to find time for the younger fans was because he was that kid once. Before he was ever F1 driver Lando Norris, he was just a kid who finally got the chance to meet their idol and he knows that picture or an autograph means the world to them
Lando motions for the boy to come over and heâs instantly tugging on his Momâs shirt to get her to come with him. She gives you guys a questioning look and when Lando motions again they both come over.
The little boyâs Italian accent is the cutest thing ever as he greets you two and you can tell just how much it means to him to be talking to Lando.
âWhatâs your name?â Lando asks as he signs a beach towel of all things.
âLuca and Iâm seven!â
âSeven is a great age. You know I started karting when I was seven!â
Lucaâs eyes get as wide as saucers as he glances back at his Mom, who is already shutting down any talk of Luca karting. âI told you possibly next year. Youâre still my little baby. I don't want you getting hurt!â
Lando gives the Mom an apologetic look. âHow about a picture?â Which easily takes Lucaâs attention away from karting, as heâs already at Landoâs side with a big smile on his face before his Mom has her phone out.
They take a couple pictures and high fives are exchanged throughout their interaction. The whole thing is very sweet and you canât help but look on in adoration, fully knowing that Lando would make a great Father one day.
You see that Luca keeps looking over at you and then back to Lando, but you donât pay that much mind to it. You figured he was just nervous or something, but what comes out of his mouth next takes you by surprise.
âYour girlfriend is very pretty.â
You feel your heart skip a beat and you glance over at Lando to see what his reaction is. You prepare yourself for the worst, but in true Lando fashion heâs all smiles. In fact heâs sporting that full face smile of his and it makes you feel funny.
âThank you buddy, I think so too.â He looks over at you with nothing but love in his eyes and youâre immediately looking away like some shy school girl.
Thankfully, the Mom comes to your aid and quickly changes the subject. âOk Luca, youâve bothered them enough. We should get back to our spot. Thank them for their time.â
His cute little voice mutters out grazie as he gives you a small wave goodbye.
âIt was very nice to meet you, Luca.â Lando bids him farewell and you both wave back at the little boy.
As soon as theyâre gone youâre immediately shoving your face back into your book, you donât even want to talk about what had just happened. It was nothing really to be so worked up over, it was just a little kid who saw two people together and assumed they were together. It happens all the time. But it is a big deal when you find yourself liking being referred to as Landoâs girlfriend. It doesnât help when neither of you deny it and correct the person. Lando likes to play into it and you love it too much to say anything.
Ever since getting that DM the other night your mind had been in a whirlwind over how Lando felt about you and how you felt about him. Hell you canât even look at him right now, youâre so in your head that youâve been staring at the same page for the last five minutes. You just wished the book you were reading could tell you how to come to terms with the fact that youâre in love with your best friend.
It was something youâd realized the other night while you were awake overthinking everything. Those feelings had always been there, but you had just pushed them aside, ignoring every little butterfly or rapid heartbeat. When they actually turned into romantic feelings you have no clue because as far as you knew, you and Lando had always been like this.
You two just dove in head first into the co-dependent friendship that was more like a relationship lifestyle. All those times youâd gone to his parents house for family dinners and holidays, both of you attached at the hip. How he wanted to ask you to move to Monaco with him and then almost didnât even move because he said heâd miss you too much. The group vacations that always ended up with you two going off and doing your own thing. The texts from him every Wednesday before a race asking if he needed to get you a paddock pass and a flight. This trip in particularâ sleeping in the same bed when you donât have to, the cuddling, the getting mistaken for a couple three times so far, the fact that it was just you two alone on the trip.
It was all there the whole time and you wondered how you could have been so blind to not realize it sooner. You were in love with him. You loved his pretty eyes and curls and the way his real laugh only seemed to come out around you. You loved his big heart and his caring nature and sometimes you thought he was too nice to be a Formula 1 driver.
You loved everything about him and truth be told it made your stomach hurt from how much you loved him. You wanted to actually be his and be able to kiss those pink lips that you sometimes found yourself staring at. When people said you were his girlfriend you wanted it to actually be true and not have it be Lando just playing along. You were so down bad that you prayed that Harry was right and that Lando was actually in love with you too.
While you were freaking out, so was Lando. When you immediately went back to reading your book and not speaking a word, he figured he had weirded you out by basically implying that you were his girlfriend. He just figured it was easier to go along with what the kid thought than explain that you werenât his girlfriend, but god does he wish you were. He didnât know what to say to try and test the waters because he knew whatever he would say would come out awkward and he didnât want to make things worse. So, once again itâs not talked about and you two pretend that it didnât happen when you finally speak again.
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Itâs the last day of the trip and youâre dreading going back to reality and away from this little slice of heaven. The only thing you have to look forward to is the supposed fancy dinner that Lando had planned for tonight, which was what you were currently getting ready for. Music plays through your phone and you softly sing along as you do your makeup. When you look up after digging in your makeup bag you spot Lando in the mirror, leaning against the door frame behind you. Your eyes lower and you see that heâs holding two gift bags.
"Those better be for your Mom.â You state as you put the finishing touches on your makeup.
âI think we both know they arenât.â He sees you roll your eyes in the mirror and it only makes him want to spoil you more. âItâs our last day, I think you deserve a parting gift.â
You turn to face him as he makes his way over to you. âI havenât gotten you a single thing this whole time. It makes me feel bad.â
Lando only shakes his head at you. âYou being here with me is the best gift you could have ever gotten me. I truly donât need anything else.â He hands you the bags. âNow open them please.â
A small smile finds its way onto your face as you take the bags from him. You decide to open the bigger bag first and once you pull out the tissue paper you know exactly what it is. Itâs still in its dust bag, but you see the branding and your jaw is dropping before you even see the actual thing. âYou did not get me this bag Lando!â You exclaim as you remove the dust bag and see that itâs the same bag you were eyeing at the store the other day.
He shrugs like itâs no big deal. âSaw you eyeing it and knew I had to get it for you and before you say anything else open the other present.â
You set the handbag down and grab the smaller gift trying to figure out what else he could have possibly gotten you. When you open it and see the bracelet you were also looking at the other day youâre at a loss for words. âLando Norris!â You could slap him, hug him, kiss him, and yell at him all at once. Heâd dropped probably close to six grand on these two gifts and your head is spinning at the thought of it.
âDonât even say anything about the price. I know youâre thinking it, but I wouldnât have bought you them if I couldnât afford it. I wanted you to have them, you deserve nice things.â You deserved a lot more than a handbag and a bracelet, but what he thought you deserved money couldnât buy.
You know there's no use in fighting him on it, but you still feel bad that he just spends all this money on you. He takes the bracelet from the box and fastens it around your wrist, the diamonds glittering in the light as you move it around. Itâs truly stunning and the handbag will go great with your outfit tonight. As soon as you two make eye contact again youâre pulling him into a bone crushing hug and you two stay like that for probably longer than necessary. âThank you a million times Lan. I love them both so much.â
Itâs time to leave for dinner shortly after that and when you arrive at the restaurant the host guides you back to a secluded corner. Itâs a very romantic ambiance and you canât help but feel like youâre on a date, which wouldnât be a horrible thing. Moments later a waiter comes over with a bottle of champagne and two glasses. âItâs on the houseâ for the special couple.â
There it is again and it seems like with each time it happens it makes your heart race even more. Lando shifts in his seat and you focus on the rising bubbles in the glasses as the waiter pours the champagne. Lando tells him thank you and your attention moves to the menu.
âWhat are you thinking about getting?â You ask, ignoring the obvious.
âProbably the steak.â He grabs the flute of champagne and takes a drink. âWhat was that? The fourth time now?â
You know exactly what heâs talking about, but youâre surprised heâs decided to talk about it. âYeah it was.â You set the menu down and grab the other flute. âThink Iâll get the steak too.â
Dinner actually turns out to be an amazing time. The food is decadent and Lando and you have good conversations that donât revolve around you two being mistaken for a couple or being in love with each other. When the waiter brings the bill youâre quite sad because that just means this trip is that much closer to being over.
You take your time heading back to the villa, trying to savor every last moment youâve got here. The sun was low in the sky by the time you get back and you tell Lando just how you want to spend your final evening in Italy. You hurry and change into comfier clothes and take off all your makeup before heading to the spot with the best view out back. Lando makes his way out there not too long after you, but heâs got one more surprise for you.
âDonât think the evening or this trip would be complete without this now would it?â He pulls a bottle of pink moscato from behind his back along with two wine glasses.
He knew you too well, but it was something you loved dearly about him. âYouâre a man after my heart Norris.â
He hands you a glass as he sits down next to you, the sun just beginning to set on the horizon. âI try.â
Thereâs a comfortable silence between you two for a while and the only sound to be heard is from the waves below. It feels like paradise sitting here with this amazing view and the guy you love next to you. Itâs probably boring to the majority of people, but this was everything you could ask for and more and the perfect way to end this amazing trip. You lean in closer to Lando, your head resting on his shoulder as he wraps his arm around you. A content sigh escapes past your lips as his thumb starts to draw mindless circles on your arm.
âThank you again for everything. This trip was amazing and Iâm glad we got to go togetherâ just you and me.â
âIâm glad too. It was probably the best summer break trip Iâve had. Donât think Ibiza will be seeing me for a while.â
Youâre not even looking at him, but you can sense the smile on his face and you canât help but laugh at his lie. âYeah, and I donât like pink moscato.â
âAlright so Ibiza will inevitably see me, but not as much as Italy.â He pauses for a moment, glancing down at you still resting on his shoulder, his heart swelling just by looking at you. âI think this may be our place now, just for the two of us.â His voice is soft when he says it, like heâs not sure if he wanted to say it outloud.
You lift your head up and are met with his piercing blue eyes staring back at you. He looked radiant as golden hour cascades over him and itâs like youâre in a trance as you look at him. You take in every last bit of him, all the little details about him that youâve memorized over the years. The slight stubble on his face from not shaving for a couple days, the little moles, his long and somehow always curled eyelashes, those pink lips of his. Heâs everything you could have ever dreamed of and more. Youâve had him at fingertip length for so long now and all you want to do is reach out for him, take what you want and never let go.
Lando feels his breath catch in his throat as you two make eye contact. Youâd never looked more beautiful than in this moment and he doesnât know how much longer he can take without you actually being his. You were the love of his life, his best friend, and everything heâs ever wanted. It may have taken him a long time to realize it, but heâs never felt like this about anyone before. You know each other like the back of your hands and it only makes sense that youâd be the one for him.
And itâs in this moment that it clicks for you two that itâs now or never. Youâre never going to have a perfect moment like this again. It feels right, like the universe wants this moment to happen and if you let it go to waste you may never get the chance again. Lando takes his free hand and gently cups your face, his thumb ever so softly rubbing across your cheek. Youâre practically putty in his hands and you feel like your heart is gonna beat out of your chest. You want to scream out to him that you love him, that you want to be his, but you can barely get your brain to communicate with your mouth.
âLan-â
Thatâs all you can get out before Landoâs leaning in and his lips are on yours. He tastes like the sugary sweet wine and his lips are soft as they move in sync with yours. Kissing him is even better than youâd imagined and as your hand reaches up to his neck you deepen the kiss. It feels like you two had kissed a thousand times before and as he pulls away youâre already left wanting more.
Your foreheads rest against each other, both of you breathless and a little light headed from that singular kiss. When you both actually internalize whatâs just happened youâre both grinning, that then turns into laughing and itâs like music to both of your ears to hear each other laugh.
âI think that was a long time coming.â You state as you finally lean back onto the couch.
Lando reaches out for your hand, intertwining his with yours. âWhen did you realize?â
âThat night when we got into that argument, which looking back now, you were totally jealous.â
âI was not jealous!â He tries to be serious, but the knowing look on your face has him cracking. âOk I was jealous.â
âWhen did you realize?â You question.
âThat same night. I couldnât understand why you flirting with that guy bothered me so much. Well I guess now we know.â
âYeah cause youâre in loooveee with me.â Youâre laughing as you speak, but he shuts you up with another kiss and leaves you pouting when he pulls away.
âOnly kissed you twice and youâre already pouting when I pull away? I think youâre in loooveee with me.â
You lean back in, capturing his lips in yet another kiss and youâre like teenagers whoâve gotten into their first relationship.
Lando sighs when you stop kissing him, he canât believe he could have had this sooner if he would have just opened his eyes. âYou think you could get another week off from work?â
Youâd do anything to get another week in a paradise with him, but you know itâs not possible. âHmm, why donât you just spend a week in London with me?â
âWell you havenât even told them that you now have a famous F1 driver boyfriend. Who if they didnât know already is very needy and needs to see his girlfriend.â He teases.
âWell you forgot to add that youâre my hot and famous F1 driver boyfriend.â You counter back.
Youâre both grinning like fools at each other and as you curl up into his side and take in the last sunset youâll see in the place that now holds such a special place in both of your hearts, youâre glad you let him convince you to come on this trip.
As the sun finally sets over the water you actually say those three little words.
âI love you.â
âI love you too.â
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Jayâs response to you taking off your ring during an argument
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"how you gonna up and leave me now how you gonna act like that? how you gonna change it up? we just finished makin' up... how you gonna act like that?"
how you gonna act like that - tyrese
c/w: angst, arguing and im in love w jay


it's as if a grey cloud is sitting over your once happy home. the bed is colder, the conversations are dry, and the goodbyes are quiet.
you can't even remember the last time you put the 'i' in front of 'love you'.
but you knew you loved him. you know the man you married and you know how good it could be. "it's just a bump in the road, that's all." is what you keep telling yourself, until it finally caused a crash.
"i just feel like you don't even want to be in this relationship anymore, y/n. i try to talk to you, but you shut me out. when i hold you, it feels distant. when i try to make love to you, you always push me off. do you even love me?" he says, still keeping his voice at a decent level.
"do i love you? of course, I love you, jay. if anything, i should be asking you that. when's the last time you've actually tried to do any of that? you barely look at me." your chest feels tight. your voice is rising, and it feels like you can't control it.
"i look at you all the time, y/n you're my wife. don't try to flip this on me when you're the one who's been distant." he says, taking a seat on the couch to ground himself.
"sure, jay. you look at me. whatever. but are you really seeing me ? i'm miserable, jay. i'm unhappy. i'm going through it. i feel trapped in my own house, and then I have to go outside and face it too. i should be able to at least come home to a husband who acts like he cares about me."
that was the pin to the balloon. for the first time, jay raises his voice at you. and you don't like it one bit.
"fine, y/n. if i'm such a bad husband, why're we married then?" he shouts before his brain could even process his words.
he wants to take it back. he wants to stand up and hold you, but his legs won't move.
before he could, you're out of his sight, and he hears your bedroom door shut. god, he's such an idiot.
jay gives it some time. not just for him to collect his thoughts, but for you to collect yours. he knew both of you were stressed, but not to this point.
he finally heads upstairs, carefully opening the door. he hears the shower running and lets out a breath he didn't know he was holding.
he scans the room, looking at the box of tissues sitting on the nightstand, a sign of the tears he made you shed that night, his chest tightening at the thought.
he noticed something sparkling next to it, causing him to step closer.
the ring he spent hours choosing, because he knew you didn't deserve just any regular ring. the ring he gracefully placed on your finger on your special day. the ring he's pressed kisses against absentmindedly, a promise to each other, sitting on the nightstand.
he didn't think you would take his words to heart. he knows why you two are married. he knows why you chose to stay with him even when he hasn't been the best husband. he plays with the diamond band in his hand as thoughts race through his head.
he doesn't even hear the shower cut off or the door opening as he sits on the edge of the bed, staring at the ring in his hand.
steams follows you as you leave the bathroom, hair damp and towel wrapped around you, yet once you spot jay, you tightened it as if he'd never seen you more vulnerable.
"j-jay ... can you step out, i wanna get dressed." you say, voice quiet and hoarse.
his heart breaks even more, hearing that. "don't be like that, y/n. please." he says desperately.
a moment of silence passes, before he lets out a shaky sigh. "you took your ring off." he says letting out a dry chuckle.
your heart sinks. you'd never thought it would get here, seeing the man you love, broken.
"i'm sorry, jay. i didn't know what to do and- and i was angry, and i-"
"i haven't stopped loving you, ever, y/n. i'm sorry that i failed to show you that. and whatever I did wrong, i'll fix it. i'll talk to you all night, i'll work from home if you need me to. but whatever you do, please don't leave me."
you don't miss the way a stray tear falls from jay's eyes, and without thinking, your feet move towards him. you wipe the tears that now fall freely from his eyes, throat becoming dry at the sight.
"jay, i was never going to leave. i was upset, and i wasn't thinking when i took it off. you are my everything, and i'm so sorry that I pushed you away or made you feel less than that."
it's quiet again as jay pulls you into his lap, head laid on your towel covered chest, listening to the sound of your heartbeat.
he slides the ring back to your finger, back where it belongs. as he returns the diamond to its home, he recites his wedding vows like a prayer.
"i promise that when it feels like the world is attacking you, i'll never join in; i'll love you even harder."
a/n: i could write abt jay for hours and hours and hourssss mind you ... he hasn't been my bias since like 2021 ITS BEEN ONLY NIKI THIS WHOLE TIME . yet i have zero niki fics posted uh hello!
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I've never had a cat before and I'm hoping to get one soon. Do you have any advice?
Treat a new cat as you would a new roommate. Give them space and time to settle, establish a pattern and a rhythm, and in time they may choose to become friends and spend time with you. Dont force a friendship.
Use simple words and repetition to establish communication. Words like breakfast, treat, snack, lunch, supper, dinner, food, and eat all basically mean, "I am feeding you; expect to be fed", but it's a lot for a little guy to remember. I just say "Dinner" when I mean "cat food is coming", and so my boy knows exactly what I mean when I say it. As a plus, using only one word for snack time means he has no idea what the other words mean, so I can talk about food in front of him without ruling him up.
Pay attention to body language. Cats all have different personalities, and you'll learn their likes, dislikes, and messages over time this way. Son boy here loves anything with plumbing but dislikes getting wet- his favourite blanket to chew and snuggle goes on his favourite chair, and he gives me a specific gesture when he wants me to kneel down so he can jump onto my shoulder.
Read into problematic behaviour. Cats pee in weird places when they're hurting, in distress, or have insufficient of unclean litter box space. Biting, attacking feet , and knocking things off tables often means they're understimulated and need you to play with them, or at least need some kind of enrichment or puzzle to tackle. Tail flicking can be frustration or irritation. Purring is usually good, but may also be self-soothing behaviour to alleviate pain, encourage healing, and relieve anxiety, like over-grooming.
Like children, "bad" behaviour isn't malicious- it usually means there's something you aren't seeing.
Learn how your cat expresses love. Loads of people think cats are uncaring, cruel, and indifferent, but the truth is, they're just not dogs. Spending time near you, showing an interest in tools you're using or projects you're working on, sitting the way you sit, laying on their back, rubbing on your legs, wiping their face on your shoes when you get home- these are signs that your cat is enamored with you. You're their family, they feel safe and protected around you, they're curious about things you enjoy and want everyone to know you're family.
Set reasonable expectations. Again, cats are not dogs.We bred dogs to desire our approval- cats walked into our lives themselves. They have no human-programmed need to fulfill a duty or perform a task to your standards.
Training cats to do tricks isn't as hard as people say, but the willingness or interest in doing the trick is more heavily reliant on personality and mood. Some cats will refuse all but the most basic requests- I'm lucky in that Ollie understands and is willing to do several, provided I don't abuse his trust and he's not crowded or overwhelmed or just bored of doing it over and over in a short period.
Ollie, for example, knows Up to stand on his back legs and hold my hand, Down to get to a surface I indicate, Out to emerge from a closed space, Come to find me where I am, Help? when I'm offering to let him use me as an elevator, Dinner when I understand he's hungry and am getting food, and when I put on his collar he knows to climb into his carrier 'cause we're going somewhere. And he'll do any of these about 90% of the time, either ignoring me or phoning it in when there's something interesting somewhere else, or if he's feeling anxious.
Lead by example. If you dread taking them to the vet, they'll see the anxiety in your body language and behaviour and likely learn to hate it, too. Again using my guy an example, I starred taking him on walks long before his first vet appointment, just to get used to his carrier and leash. Then his first checkup was relaxed and informal, with plenty of treats, and I let him explore the examination room with permission from the tech. Now he loves going, so I'm not stressed about taking him, so I don't stress him out in turn, and the vest doesn't have to deal with a stressed out cat slowing things down and fighting with them.
Make sure your sources are good ones, and also good ones for you. I will recommend Jackson Galaxy's YouTube channel for cat advice because a lot of what he does matches up with what I've learned and know to be true. I don't personally recommend Ceasar Milan because I personally find his methods distressing to recreate regardless of efficacy, so even if that advice was useful, *I'd* be miserable, and it'd just be trading one issue for another.
Have a person who can help. You never know when you might end up out of town overnight unexpectedly, or when your place may need serviced or fumigated, or if you may be called out of town. Before getting a cat, research reliable pet sitters, house sitters, pet daycares, whatever, just in case.
Consider pet insurance. No long spiel here, just think about it. Especially if you don't know your cats ancestry or potenyial health risks. An on top of that, fucking vaccinate them.
Dont let them free roam. At all.
I grew up on a farm with free-roaming barn cats. Do you know how many times child-me cried over having to bury them? Illness, disease, pregnancy, vehicles, other territorial cats, ticks, fleas, litter, poisoned prey, malicious humans, local wildlife, predatory birds, scrap metal, extreme heat, freezing temperatures, tainted water sources, poisonous or venomous critters, getting stuck in small or high places, tapeworms, loose nails, old equipment, falling branches...
I've seen some truly body-horror slasher-movie shit- just truly nauseating visual fuckery- and I'm telling you not to let your cat free-roam.
Leash training isn't hard. Supervised walks aren't hard. Even keeping your cat physically fit and entertained indoors isn't an impossible feat. Don't let your fucking cat fucking free-roam. Fuck
Also read up on foods and plants cats can't do, like every houseplant in existence is toxic it's insane
Anyhow yeah that's like. A couple things I guess
Here, have an Ollie Pic

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[Click Click Boom] [Shadow x Reader short stories]

Summary: You're set to be Shadow's companion to keep an eye on him and keep him in line, a courtesy from the goverment for him saving the world with Sonic and the others.
Word count: 1.8k
Warnings: Can be read as platonic or romantic! Shadow/reader romance is implied though! You're human in this, age is vague but you're meant to be in your 20s.
Disclaimer: Shadow is an adult, and as for the furry debate, he's literally an adult who can consent and is sentient, don't like? Don't read!
A/N: I've literally been obsessed with this fucker since I was a literal child and it's the first time I've written for him!! The trailer yas me going insane. This is written well before the movie has come out, literally all I got to work with is Shadow in the trailer and the bits and pieces of info I psychoanalized so I don't wanna hear shit about it not being accurate tbh, this is self indulgent!!

Shadow isn't the worst task you've been assigned, you both are more akin to awkward roommates more than anything.
I'm talking randomly lingering in the corners of the room, his bright red eyes glowing and they always seemed to be locked right onto you.
You screamed the first dozen times, but now you just glare at the black hedgehog and spit out a "fuck you." and go about your business.
He'll never admit that it brings him infinite amusement, it's hard to tell, but the huff he lets out is evidence enough.

Shadow will never admit he cares for you, he loses everyone he cares for, and humans don't live that long. It's terrifying to think about how much he's come to like you.
He's not nearly as slick as he thinks he is.
You're sitting down at the dinner table, typing away on your laptop, editing the mission report from the other day when Shadow makes his way towards you. Sending him a nod in his direction, you don't think of anything when he moves in close.
A huge slam takes you off guard though, jumping damn near out of your skin as you twist your head to look at him.
"What the fuck-"
"Take it."
It's one of Shadow's guns, his emblem being engraved along the stock.
"What? No, I have guns." You raise an eyebrow at the hog, his face is perfectly still, eyes locking onto yours as he waits for you to grab the heckler.
"Your guns are worthless, you need something better."
"Well excuse me, I so happen to like my guns." You try and joke back, but the offense is taken.
Shadow rolls his eyes so hard you're scared that he's gonna blind himself. Jutting his chin towards the table once more to get your focus back onto it.
"If you have one of mine, I know you're safe." He doesn't elaborate. Not that he needs to.
"...Thank you, Shad."
All you get is a grunt in response, and he's on his way back to his room.
Gingerly picking up the weapon, you take in how pristine it is, a thumb caressing your small initials that you missed on the other side of the stock.

With Shadow saving the world, the reeking of havoc makes it to where he's limited to what he is allowed to do in the public eye.
Not that he listens, he isn't supposed to be out after curfew. But to be fair, it is extremely hard to keep a teleporting hedgehog confined to a meager two-story house.
You can hear him teleport above you, he's on the roofs of the nearby building, leering down at you.
It was a small errand you were on, simply stocking up on the essentials for the house.
Namely, snacks for Shadow, he doesn't ask for a lot other than coffee beans and Doritos.
You are choosing to ignore the fact that he eats the coffee beans straight up, the crunch echoes through your head and it sends a shudder down your spine.
He was adamant against you leaving the house this late, standing in front of the front door.
"No."
"Fuck you mean no?"
"I said no."
"....I don't listen to men."
And you weaved around him to leave the house, ignoring his shout of disapproval.
That leads you both to here now, you pretending you don't see him trailing you from the rooftops as you walk your way back home from the small shopping center.
You feign surprise when he opens the house door for you, begrudgingly sticking a hand out to help you with your bags.
"Oh! Thank you my knight in shining armor~"
"Shut it."

He's never told you his birthday, which you can understand, living for 50 years and not having your family around must be hard. No matter how he may fake that it doesn't bother him.
That doesn't stop you, not in the slightest really. You damn near kick him out of the house for the day, shoving him over to Tom and Maddie's house so he can be with the others. Despite how much he protested.
"I don't want to go over there. Not with that blue fake."
"You don't really have a choice bub, I need you out of the house."
"I don't understand why I have to-"
"Keep arguing with me and I will make it a point to not buy you shit next grocery trip."
It's an empty threat, but he grunts nonetheless.
"...."
"That's what I thought."
When he finally gets home from his long and admittedly overstimulating day with the Wachowskis, he's ready to recharge in his room.
He teleports through the house door, sighing and rubbing at his temples as he moves to kick off his shoes, knowing that if he doesn't, you'd chastise him for not doing so.
Something about tracking dirt and rocket fuel into the carpet.
Whatever.
After trying to massage his brain through his fur, he opens his eyes up to see a colorful banner strung across the mantle.
'Happy birthday!' It screams, in its disgustingly neon color palette.
Shadow wracks his brain for any information of it being your birthday, he knows for a fact it isn't today. A friend you're throwing a party for? Well, that makes no sense, he knows very well you don't have many friends, especially any that you'd invite your house up for.
You're antisocial to a fault, not that he has absolutely any room to talk.
He hears you before he sees you, turning the corner into the living room, carrying some balloons in your hands. A stupid little party hat on your head.
"Shadow! What are you doing back so early?"
Kicking off the last shoe, he stands at his full height, staring into your eyes with a shrug.
"I wasn't aware I had a time."
"....fair enough, anyways, fuck, goddamnit. Stay here. Okay?"
And you're off, running into the kitchen, his ears flick at the slamming of the fridge door, followed by the cabinets being no doubt, hip nudging it shut way too forcefully.
He's awkwardly standing there still until you yell for him to come in.
Shadow has half a mind to ignore you and go into his room, but curiosity kills the cat, so he takes in a deep breath and makes his way to you.
He finds you sitting at the little kitchenette, a nervous smile spread across your lips as you gesture to the plate in front of you.
The smell is apparent, it's a coffee cupcake.
The hedgehog feels his ears flick again, staring down at the desert, then trailing his eyes back to meet your own. Wordlessly asking you what was going on.
"You've never told me your birthday, but it's been a year since you've been here, with me. After the whole trying to destroy the world shit. So since you won't tell me, we can kinda treat this as it?" You keep rambling, eyes flitting around the room, very clearly nervous as to his reaction.
Shadow doesn't say anything, or move even. Just staring down at the cupcake.
It looks amateurish, the frosting is lopsided, and the toppings on it look messy. But you made it for him. You even added a big black "1" candle in the center.
He doesn't know what to say, he can feel heat rush through his body, rushing to his ears and his face, and his fur feels constricting.
What the fuck.
What the actual fuck.
You go to open your mouth again, no doubt to apologize, but he beats you to it.
Moving to scoop up the treat, he gently sniffs it before taking a cautionary bite.
A beat passes between the two of you.
"...it's good."
Shadow does his best to ignore the smile that blooms across your face, not wanting to remember just how pretty he finds you like this.
Disgusting.

Shadow doesn't like touch, you know it, he knows it, and everyone knows it. He's threatened to break Sonic's wrist for even so much as patting the older hedgehog on the back. Baring his sharper fangs and hissing out to not touch him ever.
He avoids group hugs from Team Sonic, avoids Tom and Maddie like the plague, dodging every invitation to be a part of the family, it makes him sick to think about it.
With you, it's a little different.
You're not like them, you don't push him to change, you don't have a problem with how closed off he is, giving him space, never once pushing his very strict boundaries.
Something churns in his chest at the sound of you crying in your room, you probably think you're being incognito, holding a pillow to your face to drown out your sobs.
The internal debate is heavy, Shadow used to be able to comfort, to provide warmth, but he hasn't done so in years. Flashes of memories where he would comfort Maria on her bad health days, letting her run her fingers over his quills, to lend an ear to Gerald when he was frustrated about treatments not working.
It's not to say he is replacing you in their place, but it's scary. To open himself up like that again. He can feel his anxiety rising as he goes over the pros and cons of crossing this line. Eyes squeeze shut forcefully as he tells himself he doesn't care about you, that you're an adult, and you don't need to be babied.
His ears twitch when a pathetic little whimper drops from your lips, and his resolve cracks.
You don't look up when he makes his way in, too stuck in your bubble.
Startling a little when two, much stronger and larger hands grab at your own, peeling them away from the pillow. Your puffy bloodshot eyes looking at the hedgehog in front of you, his face set as it usually is, stoic. But his eyes are different, and his body language is different, when has he ever looked at you so softly? It's jarring.
Oh, he's moving closer. Okay. Weird.
"Shadow? Uh, I'm ok-"
You try and lie, it's a pitiful attempt. Your voice is scratchy and the tear tracks down your cheeks aren't helping your plight.
"No, you're not."
He shuts you down immediately, hands sliding up your arms to drag you into him.
The instant your bodies touch, you feel a fresh wave of tears well up in your eyes again.
Shadow has you resting against him, your head resting on him as he wraps himself loosely in your arms, giving you the space to move away if you so choose.
It's the first time he's allowed you to hug him, the first time he's ever initiated contact with someone in years. A fact that you both are well aware of.
A sob works its way up your throat, immediately tightening your grip on the hedgehog, curling into him as you shake.
Shadow doesn't say anything, doesn't make fun of you as snot pours from your nose, doesn't point out that your mascara and eyeliner are getting everywhere, just sits there and lets you cling onto him like he's your only lifeline.
He thinks that this is okay, he's strong enough for you both, and you don't need to worry when he's here.

#IS THIS ANY FUCKING GOOD LMAO#I have no clue but i love him so bad hes been a comfort character my entire life#no one loves u shadow like i do#promise#teddy loves shadow â#shadow the hedgehog#shadow x reader#shadow the hedgehog x reader#sonic x reader#sonic the hedgehog x reader#sega#sonic 3#sonic the hedgehog#shadow
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What about a cold!reader where Spencer gets jealous this time?
Like they meet another police team and they also have a "Spencer" who's dorky and they don't really listen to his rambling so she's kind to him (in her own cold!reader way) Spencer is like "???? The fuck is this exactly?"


SILENT TREATMENT. /spencer reid/
spencerâs not sure if you made the right decision by choosing him. you know that you did.
s10!cold!reader 3.1k flangst series masterlist. main masterlist.
a/n | i fear i missed the âpolice teamâ part of the first request and made spencer 2.0 a pathologist instead, oops-
The air in the precinct is heavy with stale coffee and tension. You stand at the whiteboard, arms crossed, eyes scanning the photographs pinned to itâvictims, maps, timelines.
The others are seated around the table, all mid-discussion, but youâre quiet. Not checked out. Just⌠precise. Listening without indulging the noise.
You speak when necessary.
âVictim three deviates from the geographical pattern. If it was opportunistic, the UnSubâs comfort zone is widening. If it wasnâtâheâs accelerating.â
Rossi nods, pen tapping against the table. âCould be staging, too. Make it look random.â
âCould be.â You donât elaborate. You donât fill silences. You let them speak if they have something worth adding.
No one pushes for more. They know how you operate. They know you donât soften things. Not for comfort, not for camaraderie. Youâre professional, respectedâand emotionally distant, even now, even years into working with them.
The only exception to that is sitting three feet away from you, pretending to read a file heâs already memorised twice.
Spencer is quiet. Quieter than usual. His gaze flicks to you every so often, like heâs trying to time somethingâhis words, maybe. Your reactions. Your temperature. Whatever it is, heâs trying to gauge where youâre at without having to ask.
âSpencer,â you say without looking at him, âpage twelve. The blood spatter analysis.â
Heâs already on it, of course. He lifts his eyes quickly. âRightâuh, yeah. The cast-off patterns indicate repeated strikes from a blunt object, likely with some torque. There's arterial spray on the west wall, so the blow that killed her came from the left side.â
You give a small nod. âThanks.â
Thatâs it. No warmth. No smile. But Spencer straightens a little like it meant something. Like heâs grateful for being asked.
Emily side-eyes the two of you, not subtle in the least. âIs it just me, or has Boy Wonder been extra clingy lately?â
Morgan grins over his coffee. âYou noticed that too, huh? Heâs been on her like a puppy. Following her around the crime scenes, sitting next to her at lunch, hanging on her every wordâŚâ
JJ chimes in, amused. âItâs kind of cute. Heâs like one of those Victorian ghostsâyou know, all sad eyes and emotional repression,â
âHey,â Spencer protests, not quite looking at any of them. âI donâtâcling,â
You donât react. You never do when they tease him. And Spencer doesnât look to you for help either, but you can feel the tension in his shoulders beside you.
Still, theyâre not wrong.
Heâs been⌠off lately. Not in a way most people would notice, but youâre not most people. Heâs always been close to you, but recently, heâs orbiting you in smaller, tighter circles. Sitting closer. Waiting longer when you speak, like he's hoping you'll say something more.
The team has picked up on it. Of course they have. But they donât know. Not really. They just think heâs crushing harder than usual. No one suspects whatâs actually going onâbecause youâve made sure of that.
You and Spencer arenât the kind of couple who touch hands under the table or exchange soft smiles across briefing rooms. Youâre not a couple that does anything in front of people, really. Youâre together, but that truth stays tucked away between you and him, guarded in the quiet moments that happen off the clock.
Moments no one else sees.
âYou doing okay?â you ask him quietly as the others begin packing up for the next site visit.
Spencer looks startled. âMe?â
You donât repeat yourself.
He nods, quickly. âYeah. Just⌠yeah,â
You hold his gaze for a second longer than necessary. A flicker of something passes between you. Reassurance, maybe. Or a silent understanding.
Morgan watches the exchange from the other side of the room, eyebrows lifting. âOkay, seriously, what is that?â
You ignore him. You grab your coat.
Hotch glances at his watch, then at you. âYou and Reid head to the MEâs office. JJ, Emily, and Morganâhead to the victimâs apartment.â
Spencer immediately moves to follow, a bit too fast, a bit too eager.
Emily catches your arm on the way out, voice low. âYouâd tell me, right?â
You pause. âTell you what?â
She gives you a long look. âNever mind,â
â
The mortuary is colder than usual, the sterile, humming kind of cold that seeps through your coat and settles deep in your bones. You donât shiver. You just pull on a pair of latex gloves and nod at the technician who leads you and Spencer toward the back.
The morgue table is already prepped, and the body is covered with a clean white sheet. Itâs clinical. Organised. Efficient.
Spencer walks beside you in silence, his hands folded in front of him, shoulders set in that way that means heâs wound a little too tight. You donât ask why. You already know. Heâs been tense since yesterdayâsince you listened to the young tech at the crime scene rattle off chemical compositions and possible causes of decomp with the kind of enthusiasm Spencer usually reserves for classical literature and obscure physics.
Now, youâre both here again, about to meet another new person excited to talk about death.
The doors swing open, and in walks a man who canât be older than twenty-eight. Blonde hair slightly ruffled, round glasses sliding down his nose, blue gloves snapped on too tight. Heâs grinning before he even says hello.
âYou must be the agents! Iâm Tyler, the newest forensic pathologist on-site.â He says it like heâs giving a TED Talk. âTechnically Iâm still finishing my fellowship, but Iâve done two post-grads already, and Iâve been shadowing Dr. Karlsen for the last three monthsââ
Behind him, a woman in her sixties, presumably Dr. Karlsen, sighs audibly. âTyler,â
âRight, right,â Tyler says, waving her off. âBack on track. Letâs begin,â
He peels back the sheet with a reverent kind of gentleness, like heâs revealing a masterpiece, not a victim of a homicide. You donât react, not outwardly. You observe the bruising around the throat, the defensive wounds along the forearms, the way one wrist seems just slightly dislocated from the rest of the bodyâs alignment.
Spencer shifts beside you, already piecing things together.
Tyler claps once, low but excited. âSo, cause of death was asphyxiation due to manual strangulation, but whatâs really interesting is the laryngeal cartilageâyou see here?â He gestures with tweezers, careful not to touch. âThis fracture on the right side of the thyroid cartilage? Itâs called a hyoid crush. Super rare, but it suggests a significant amount of pressure, possibly done from behind. Alsoâif you look just under hereââ
Spencer speaks up, voice dry. âThat damage could also occur post-mortem if the body was handled roughly during movement. Depending on the timeline, itâs not definitive,â
Tyler blinks. âYesâtrue! Great point. But in this case, time of death aligns pretty tightly with the estimated bruising pattern, which I can show you in just a moment. And did you knowââ He turns toward you now, eyes bright behind his glasses. ââthat the thyroid cartilage, especially in females, doesnât always ossify the way it does in males? Thatâs why injuries here can be harder to spot unless youâre really looking,â
You nod once. âInteresting.â
He beams, clearly encouraged. âOh! And even coolerâwell, not for the victim, obviouslyâbut cool from a physiological standpointâis that the arterial pressure around the carotid sinus can trigger something called a vagal response. It can actually kill a person instantly. Thatâs why sometimes you see victims with minimal signs of struggle. Their heart just⌠stops,â
You donât interrupt. You just let him go on, standing still, arms crossed loosely over your chest. Your face is unreadable, but youâre listening. Not because youâre overly impressedâhis information is nothing Spencer couldnât rattle off half-asleepâbut because itâs rare to see someone talk about this stuff with that kind of earnest joy. Itâs not affection, not interest. Itâs more like watching a dog with a brand-new toy. Mildly amusing. Harmless.
Spencer doesnât see it that way.
Heâs standing rigid beside you now, arms crossed, jaw set tight. You can practically feel the radiating jealousy off him like static. Tylerâs voice is all you can hear in the room, but Spencerâs silence is louder.
Dr. Karlsen cuts in after a minute, clearing her throat.
âTyler. Youâre wandering,â
âRight, right, sorry,â he mutters sheepishly. âOkay. So, other injuries: mild contusions to the upper back, inconsistent with the ligature pattern on the neckâsuggests those came before the primary attack. Or from an external for e,â
Spencer murmurs, almost too low to be heard, âOr the UnSub simply pressed her down with a knee to control movement,â
You glance at him. His eyes arenât on youâtheyâre locked on the mortician, unblinking.
Tyler continues without noticing. âIâll upload full reports to the BAUâs system. But if youâd like to stay, Iâve got the next autopsy scheduled in twenty minutes. Itâs unrelated, but the skull fractureâs really unusualâhe fell into an industrial lathe, if you can believe thatââ
âThank you,â you interrupt, voice calm. âBut weâve got another scene to process.â
Tyler deflates a little but still smiles. âOf course. Good luck with the case,â
Spencer doesnât say goodbye.
â
Back at the precinct, the team regroups. Photos scatter across the table, evidence logs updated, and reports uploaded. Itâs a flurry of movement, conversation, caffeine.
Spencer stays quiet.
Even when Garcia calls in with a list of potential suspect matches, even when JJ reads off new victimology dataâheâs present, but distant. Contributing, but subdued.
The turning point comes when youâre scanning Tylerâs preliminary report again, eyes catching on something heâd mentioned in passingâabout the bruising pattern not matching the ligature marks.
You frown. âThis doesnât make sense.â
Hotch looks up. âWhat is it?â
You pull a photo closer. âThe bruising on the victimâs upper back was dismissed as unrelated, but if the UnSub had control of her neck from behind, these could be from bracing his knee. Except the angles are wrong, which means she was restrained by someone else beforehand. Or there were multiple offenders.â
A beat.
Morgan leans in. âMultiple Unsubs? Are you sure?â
Reid is already flipping through crime scene notes, pulling up maps, rearranging the timeline.
But you know the shift started with something Tyler said. A stray, almost off-hand detailâone Spencer had dismissed. And now, itâs cracked the case wide open.
You glance over at him again.
His expression is neutral, but you know him. Know the set of his jaw, the small twitch of his fingers against the folder, the way he suddenly wonât meet your eyes.
Heâs not okay.
And the silence keeps going.
And going.
Spencer doesnât sit next to you at the precinct. He doesnât offer up extra information unless someone asks directly. He doesnât bring you your usual coffee without saying anything, doesnât lean over your shoulder to glance at your notes, doesnât linger when you leave the room.
At first, you donât even notice. Not really. Youâre used to space. You need space. Silence doesnât alarm youâit comforts you. If he wants room, youâll give it. Thatâs part of being with someone, right? Letting them breathe.
But then it starts to feel like something else.
Something heavier.
His eyes avoid yours. His steps fall behind the team, not beside you. His voice, when he speaks, sounds smaller. Not quieter. Smaller.
And the teamâwell, they notice.
They notice fast.
âWhat do you think happened?â JJ whispers, leaning toward Morgan at the conference table.
Morgan lifts a brow. âBetween Doctor Genius and Miss Ice Bath?â
JJ nods. âThey havenât said more than five words to each other in two days,â
âMaybe they had a fight,â
âAbout what? Reid would agree the sky was red if she suggested it,â
âExactly,â Morgan mutters, âmaybe thatâs the problem,â
JJ laughs under her breath. âOr maybe Spence is just tired,â
Morgan chuckles. âEither way, something is weird,â
â
You keep your head down. You do your work. And when Spencer doesn't sit beside you, you let him be.
Because you figure if he needed you, he'd say something.
He doesnât.
Not until four nights into the case, in a borrowed office space at the local PD. It's late. The rest of the team has gone back to the hotel to get some sleep, but you stayed behind to finish typing up victimology reports. Spencer stayed tooâthough he hasnât said more than three words to you all day.
You assumed he was just buried in research.
He isnât.
Heâs pacing now, just behind you, his arms crossed tight like heâs trying to hold himself together.
You finally look up.
âWhatâs wrong with you?â
He stops pacing, stares at the wall for a moment, then turns to you, blurting out in a rush:
âDo you want to be with me, or would you rather be with someone else whoâs⌠easier to deal with?â
You blink, slow. âExcuse me?â
He exhales, harsh and shaky. âIâIâve just been thinking about it, okay? Since the morgue. Since that guy.â
Youâre still. Watching him carefully.
He keeps going, words unraveling fast.
âHe was like me. He talks like me. He got excited about the same things I do, and youâyou listened to him. You didnât tune him out, you didnât tell him to focus, or cut him off, or roll your eyes. You actually looked like you didnât mind. Like you liked hearing him talk.â
âOkayââ
âAnd thatâs fine, thatâsâI get it, heâs younger, heâs less complicated, and Iâm not trying to make this into something dramatic, I justââ He cuts himself off, swallows. âYou could have someone like him. Someone who doesnât have⌠all of theâ baggage, that I come with,â
He gestures at himself. Like he is the problem. Like all the things that make him him are some burden youâve quietly been carrying.
You stare at him for a long moment.
Then you speak, slowly.
âI have no idea what youâre on about.â
Spencer looks confused. âWhat?â
âIâm going to assume youâre talking about the ME, and tell you that youâre being ridiculous,â You stand, stepping closer to him. âI was focused on the case. On the victim. Not on whether the guy liked explaining arteries.â
âBut you let himââ
âBecause I let you talk like that,â you say. âSo why would I shut someone else down for doing the same?â
He doesnât say anything.
Your voice softens a fractionânot warm, but honest. Quiet. Careful.
âYouâre who Iâm with.â
His brows draw together. âThatâs it?â
You nod. âYes.â
Heâs still not sure how to process that. âBut Iâmâdifficult.â
âI know.â
âAnd youâre okay with that?â
You sigh, stepping just close enough that your knees brush his. âYes*.*â
You pause.
Then, carefully, you lift your hand and rest it on his knee. Not possessive. Not performative.
Just steady.
Itâs one of the few times you initiate touch. He notices. His eyes flicker down, then back up again, and something in his posture shiftsâlike the weight on his shoulders finally loses a fraction of its heaviness.
Heâs still spiralling a little, you can tell, but you add, gently, âYou spiral. You overthink. You get jealous. You shut down.â
A pause.
âAnd I donât care.â
His throat bobs.
You reach up, fingers brushing lightly against the edge of his hairline, tucking it back behind his ear. He leans into it instinctively, even though heâs still blinking like he canât believe what just happened.
You look at him flatly.
âIf I didnât want to be with you,â you say. âthen I wouldnât be here,â
He exhales like heâs been holding his breath for a week.
Then, finally, he nods.
And for the first time in days, his fingers curl around yours.
â
The next morning, everything is back to normal.
Or, at least, it seems like it.
Spencer sits beside you again at the precinct. He hands you your coffee, shoulder brushing yours. He leans over your notepad to make a quiet joke about the new crime scene tech who mislabeled three evidence bags, and you give a low, dry chuckle that makes Morgan do a double-take.
Emily stares. JJ narrows her eyes.
Somethingâs changed.
But itâs subtle. Maddeningly subtle.
Thereâs no hand-holding. No long, longing stares. Just⌠a shift in air pressure.
âYou feel that?â JJ murmurs to Morgan as you and Spencer walk out of the room together, shoulders aligned.
Morgan sips his coffee. âPretty boyâs silent treatment didnât last long,â
âNo,â JJ says slowly, âapparently not,â
They both fall silent, watching you disappear down the hall with Spencer beside you.
âYou think theyâreâ?â Morgan starts.
JJ shakes her head. âNo idea.â
But theyâll keep guessing.
They always do.
And you?
Youâll keep things exactly the way you like them.
Quiet. Private.
Yours.
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Pt3 of the Danny is the 99th attempted clone Tim made of Kon. Kon learns about Danny.
Relevant info: Kon was dead closer to a year and a half in this au, and this happens a few months after his revival.
[Pt2: here] [Pt4: here]
So Tim has admittedly been putting off meeting up with the Titans. Everyone has settled back into the new normal. Too much has happened for it to look anything like before, but the other 3 Titans have been hanging out semi-regularly, and Tim turns down their invites 3 of 4 times. He knows it's starting to hurt their feelings, and he hates that.
But... he's scared to admit he's a father now. A father to a clone of one of them. He's not sure how to bring it up. Cassie never asked if he was successful, probably just assumed he failed because there isn't a third Superboy flying around. Jokes on her. Danny isn't going to be a Superboy. He's not allowed to even think about being a hero or vigilante until he's 14 at the earliest, and Tim is going to help him find his own name if he chooses that path. He won't be a Robin or Superboy. He won't live in the shadow of those legacies if Tim can help it.
None of that is relevant for the here and now, though. Tim got Jason to babysit Danny and finally agreed to a hang out with the Titans. He asked Danny for his opinion first before making his decision and got the go ahead. So, Tim is finally going to come clean.
Tim barely makes it into the tower when he's tackled by his friends.
"Tim! You're here!" Bart cheers.
"Yeah, it's good to see you guys too. Sorry I haven't been very present." Tim fidgets. "I've been busy... I also haven't been honest..."
"Tim?" Cassie sounds concerned. And Tim just can't. He extracts himself from the puppy pile. He can't make himself give eye contact. He's sure his guilt and shame are written all over his body language.
"Tim, you can tell us anything." Kon sounds super genuine. Tim takes a deep grounding breath.
"Okay, let's do this like a bandaid." Tim finally looks at them, focusing mostly on Kon. "I have a son. He's technically Kon's, too."
He gets the dubious pleasure of watching his three idiots look at his abdomen, as if he gave birth.
"Why-? Kon, we never fucked!? What the fuck guys??" He sputters, waving his hands in front of him.
"Then how-" Cassie realizes. "Oh!"
"Oh?? What do you mean??" Bart is looking between them and vibrating in confusion. Kon is just looking like a confused and concerned puppy.
"Okay, so, I may have had a breakdown with everyone dying or going missing." Tim grimaces. "And while I was fully aware that even if I succeeded, it wouldn't be Kon, I still tried to clone him. And, um, I did manage to succeed in the end."
"Fuck, Tim.." Kon starts.
"Look, I was in a really fucking dark place and needed even just a piece of good I lost." Tim hugs himself, self loathing burning him from the inside out. "Everyone was turning their back on me, I just needed something, anything, to keep going."
"Fuck, I should have helped..." Cassie bites her lip, chewing on her guilty conscious.
"It's fine. No one was listening. Don't beat yourself up over it. You were in a bad spot, too." Tim gives a humorless laugh. "Danny was my 99th attempt. And my last attempt, if I'm honest. I could feel myself breaking more with each failure. On a fucking whim, I decided to make the 99th attempt a baby instead of trying for a teenager, and it worked. I fucked up a bit, I forgot to adjust the knowledge download to that of a 1 year old, but he was alive. He's the best thing to ever happen to me. I was scared to tell you. I'm sorry-"
"Tim.." Kon cuts him off, and Tim snaps his mouth shut. "I.. I'm honestly not sure how to feel about you cloning me, but I'd like to meet him. What's his name?"
Tim rapidly blinks back tears. "Aedan Drake, he prefers being called Danny. I.. I didn't add Kent because I don't trust Clark with him or give him an El name, I wanted him to understand kryptonian language and culture first. I... I also wanted Danny to be old enough to make the decision over his name himself. I don't want him to be treated like you were. The house of El were so awful to you."
"I understand, Tim." Kon steps towards Tim, "Can.. Can I hug you?"
Tim nods and is swept into a tight hug. He feels something give emotionally, and he sobs into his shoulder. "I fucking love him so much."
"Tell me about him." Kon says softly. He can feel Bart and Cassie hoving, unsure what to do, but unwilling to leave.
"He's physically around 3 now. He loves ghosts and space and named the wolf plushy I bought him on his first day alive Wulf." There's some chuckles over that. "He's sassy and petty, but insanely sweet and tries to help out with any and all tasks. I see so much of both of us in him. Nature vs Nurture is a messy bitch. You remember what I said my start as Robin was like?"
"How you had to babysit a grown ass man and force him into better habits?" Cassie snarks.
"Karma's a funny bitch. Danny started doing the same shit to me as soon as he figured out how to walk." Tim giggles. "Anytime we weren't in danger, he'd force me to take care of injuries and to eat and sleep. And I'd do it because what kind of monster denies a baby trying to be helpful... plus he gets really stressed and depressed if he can't help."
Tim grips the back of Kon's shirt. "I don't understand how he developed my people pleaser tendencies so early on. We were stuck on LoA bases when he first started doing everything in his power to help me. I was purposely being a little shit to our "hosts" at the time. So it wasn't a surprise that he developed a Robin's need to troll, but he only saw me be nice to him."
"The LoA??" Kon asks in alarm.
"It was a rough year..." Tim scowls. "And if I see Ra's again, I'm gutting him. B's rules be damned."
"What happened?" Cassie asks, suddenly a lot closer.
"He's a creep, a pedo, and a child abuser." Kon rubs Tim's suddenly very stiff back and shoulders. "I could handle him being creepy towards me. While gross and awful to have a disgusting 300 or something year old man trying to wife me-"
"Excuse me???"
"He WHAT?"
"-I'm more pissed I couldn't protect Danny. I don't know what that piece of shit did when I couldn't take Danny with me, but Danny is linked to the pit now. He luckily doesn't have pit rage like Jason, but he can calm Jason's pit and apparently glows according to Duke." Tim sobs. "I should have killed the man when I had a chance. I don't know what he did to Danny!"
"It's not your fault, Tim." Kon hugs Tim tightly, it's almost painful. "You were in a tough spot and doing your best to keep you both alive."
"Just focus on healing and moving on." Bart says while running a hand through Tim's hair. Cassie rubs both Tim and Kon's backs as Tim gets himself under control.
"Can.. can I meet him?" Kon whispers.
"I'd love for you to meet him." Tim sniffles. "He was nervous you'd hate him for existing. I apparently passed on my stupid anxiety. I couldn't quite get him to believe me when I told him he wouldn't be who you'd be mad at if you got mad. He wants to meet you, but I accidentally made the most jaded baby in the world."
"A Super raised by a Bat is going to be terrifying." Bart giggles. "We'll have to make sure he doesn't become a supervillain."
"Meh. He's too cute. If he goes evil, all he has to do is pout and he'll instantly win." Tim jokes, wiggling out of the hug. "Want to see pictures?"
There's a very strong positive response. The next 3 hours finds Tim showing off pictures and explaining the stories behind them, his team melting at how cute his son is. Tim feels the lightest he's felt in a while. He does have to promise Bart and Cassie to bring Danny over once Kon and Danny meet one on one first.
What Tim doesn't know is Kon is absolutely obsessed with and slightly horny over this parental side of Tim. He's fully daydreaming of the 3 of them living together and being disgustingly domestic the whole time Tim is showing off Danny. Cassie can tell what Kon is thinking about and is amused.
Once Tim leaves, the Titans go to the training room and fuck up some bots because of the rage they feel on Tim and Danny's behalf. They all agree to be as petty as possible to any LoA members they come across and to murder Ra's the moment there's an opportunity to do so without the JL knowing. Tim isn't the only unhinged one on this team. That's why they work so well together.
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Mark doesn't like pair projects.
It's not that he's better at working alone. He'd much rather have one or more people there to help get the job done since he isn't exactly the brightest.
But every time the teacher starts, "Alright, this next assignment you're gonna be in pairs." He'll sit there, gripping his worn pencil praying to himself, "please pick our partners, please pick our partners," over and over.
He isn't often so lucky.
See, Mark doesn't have any friends in this class. Or in general. So he never has the luxury to make knowing-eye-contact with that one person he knows will always partner with him for anything.
If only William were here. Then he wouldn't have to look so obviously nervous as the seconds pass.
He'll sit at his desk pretending to be busy. Mussing with his notebook, digging through his backpack, fixing his shoelaces, a weak ploy that buys him some time for someone to hopefully come over and pick him first. Or at least enough time for everyone else to pair, the moving bodies distracting the teacher away from him starting the work. Alone. In the back of the classroom. The far back where he goes unnoticed as usual.
He thought the stares the pairs next to him give, whispering as he slumps into his chair to further get out of sight, were bad enough. They knew him as the lone weirdo at this point.
But lately his tactics of laying low have failed as his teacher started asking you to invite him to join your group.
You're kind enough about it. Smiling and taking his hand as you lead him over to your desk. Neither you nor your partner mention how the teacher told you to talk to him. And he doesn't bring it up either.
He's grown a little relieved actually. Still does his lingering-by-the-backpack thing until you come and drag him over. But at least he has the peace of mind knowing he won't be solving all these confusing packets alone.
But then you start bringing your stuff over to sit at his desk instead. Setting out your notes, reading over the instructions and asking him where you should start.
"We can split up the research part to make this faster. And it's a bit like that last assignment we had, so I'm pretty sure we could just paraphrase what we already wrote there instead."
He looks over your shoulder, searching for your usual partner, thinking they're about to come and join you. But they don't.
Okay, weird. Maybe they're just not here today?
"It's due by the end of the week, so we could take turns bringing it home for the artsy parts?"
He's a bit too distracted by the sight of your friend elsewhere in the room, working with their own partner already.
"Mark?"
"Huh? Oh, uh, yeah. Sounds great. Um ... let's start?"
You work on the project together and it's not so different from doing it in a group of three. Just glad to have someone to split the work with, he decides he doesn't need to ask why you chose to go to him first this time.
Until you start going to him again. And again. And again.
You even choose to sit at the desk next to his once the teacher does that "pick your own seat" thing every quarter.
Then he just has to ask.
He watches you as your scrawl on the poster board. Hand nervously scratching his neck, biting the inside of his lip, foot tapping before he speaks.
"Why are you here?"
"Hm?" You finally look up from your work.
His stomach feels jittery. He fears for his phrasing in case you suddenly realize you had enough of him and decide to punch him in the gut.
"You know. Like ... why are you sitting with me? Don't you want to be working with your friend?"
You pause, pencil hovering above the page. "Do you ... want me to go away?"
What? He didn't just accidentally push you away from him, did he?
"No, no! It's not that at all! In fact, I'd love it if you didn't leave me ever. I mean- not like that! I just mean that, uh, you just- you never bothered to partner with me before? You know, if the teacher is making you stick with me for some reason, you really don't have too. And um, you haven't been around your friend much recently? Since you're with me."
He wasn't sure where to look as he awaited your answer.
Your sudden smile made his gut churn even more. Was that a condescending smile or?
"Well, the teacher did ask us to at first. But, you're actually kinda cool. I like working with you. And my friend has been busy trying to flirt with their crush. And I dunno about you, but I'd rather not be stuck as the third wheel for any situation." You chuckled.
His stomach seemed to be flipping. Was he feeling sick?
"So is that why you've been acting nervous this whole time, or are you really always like this?"
He cleared his throat, shifting to sit up straighter. "Um yeah, no. I, uh, that's ... that's all I ...," he sniffed. "Um, so problem five?"
You laughed again, scooting closer and placing a hand on his paper to shift it toward you.
You didn't seem as painfully aware of how close your soft hands were to his plain ones.
"What don't you understand about it this time?"
He was aware you'd gone over this certain problem over ten times already, but he was positive he wasn't going to be able to focus on it any better now that he had a whole slew of new questions to flood his mind.
You think he's cool?
Well, if you think that good about him now, what other good things do you think about him?
Do you think about him a lot when you're at home?
Could you start to?
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